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Kisses to all who left me such sweet comments. I love recieving comments, it makes me so fucking happy. When I worte that whole thing I thought I may end up contridicting myself in the future with differnt entries so I am just gonna state this shit now as to avoid confusion later.
While I will not be a dancer again-not a stripper at least- I will always have a love for the sex industry just because I will always love a world thats so strait forward. The sex industry is not bullshit-and you do not need to deal with fake people. Granted many people there are fake, but no one will mask that like in other professions, if you follow. In that respect it is a very honest buissness, and I wish there was a way to sell sex in a more... I don't know safe/healthy manner.
I love beautiful women and I love watching girls work the pole and it wasn't until my first lap dance till I really saw what men see when they look at a girl. We are so soft and smell so nice, and whoa!! Its really quiet wonderful. Ii just hate that so many people choose to work there out of desperation and stuff. I did once meet this girl who from what I can tell was a snormal as could be. I mean she wasn't suzy sunshine or anything, but she told me how when she was little, her grandma use to shoe her books on Burlesque and she had watched all these old movies with classic shoe girls and she had fell in love with the idea at a very young age. Stripping was the obvious career choice, so in cases such as that I say more power to you. And please don't get me wrong, those nights the men pored in and fawned over me, and they were actually really hot and nice I was in heaven.
If I could, I would open up a club that had dancers , but I would have it managed so different, and I would totally screen my clients and my girls and I would not have any junkies on my damn payroll, and it would be a whole different thing. Maybe one day.

Right now, my new obsession is Porn stars. I just love them thanks to this documentary called "thinking xxx". I don't like there job at all, cause I really don't think I could get wet on command, but I love the whole fake boobs thing, and the walking cartoon look. It must be those lips and big hair. Ii don't know, but it has made me embrace my tits in a way like never before...since I have always hated having breast since the whole eating disorder thing.

You know what I think that really bothers me about the strip club buissness is how mean the girls can be. I think it might just be a girl thing period, but I have never liked that about women at all. And it just sucks to be naked in a room with girls who have sticks up there asses. Tthen again, I worked at some of the nastiest clubs, so Ii guess I would of been pretty pissed too is I stayed long enought. Anyway, why do girls do that. Some ladies are perfectly delightful, and Ii am always thrilled when Ii meet nice women. Llike, I was totally surprised when I got comments by you ladies ( you all know who you are) because I just never really thought about it. I have female friends, but I never really took to girls like I do to boys. I always want to have a gang of girls but good girls to group with are mad hard to find. So many girls are two faced, and such haters.. which makes no sence in reference to me since I never see why anyone would hate on me, c'mon my life is little fucked up!!! But the girls I have met on this site rock. I think its great that SG exist cause I think it serves as a place where girls who are bold, and talented, and gorgeous can all come together and form a sort of a haven from the world of two faced bitchlets and just stupid people.
I want to write more, but Ii have to clean my house and get some more bloody paper work done.

Peace