Well my Christmas was okay. It wasn't great but it was a lot better than I thought it would be.
I went out for some chinese food with my friend Jer...then we watched House of Flying Daggers on DVD. I love movies like that. It was good...a little predictable in it's attempts to be unpredicatble. But I really love the imagery, movements and beauty of...
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I went out for some chinese food with my friend Jer...then we watched House of Flying Daggers on DVD. I love movies like that. It was good...a little predictable in it's attempts to be unpredicatble. But I really love the imagery, movements and beauty of...
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kreatinkaos:
NewYears eve at the frog pond ?
nellichaos:
just stoppin by to say hello and see how you're doing!!!!!
hope you're having a good day!!!!
Well yesterday I got a whim to surprize my ex with both some presents and good hearted holiday wishes.
So after work I drove the 130miles to her place through the wind and rain (wind and rain always makes for a better story) and ended up on her doorstep.
Her car was there and her light was on so I called her cell. No answer....
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So after work I drove the 130miles to her place through the wind and rain (wind and rain always makes for a better story) and ended up on her doorstep.
Her car was there and her light was on so I called her cell. No answer....
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arachnequarius:
thank you, sir! take care of yrself, yr puter, and all things robscarlett. hoping you are continuing to enjoy a happy day.
arachnequarius:
can i just tell you that I LOVE FLETCH!!! seriously, i saw it twice in theaters. omg, funny.
thank you for the giggle.
thank you for the giggle.
*sigh* I have a headache. It started at work and got worse and worse. I don't have anything normal to take for it so I took another Vicodin. It helps a little.
So after my initial giddyness about hearing my ex wants to get back together with me my brain kicked in. It does that sometimes...not normally when I need or want it to.
I...
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So after my initial giddyness about hearing my ex wants to get back together with me my brain kicked in. It does that sometimes...not normally when I need or want it to.
I...
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hexek:
You definately have your head in the right place from what it sounds. You want the best for you but you dont want to risk the feelings of others.
My ex actually visited me today as well. Im still very much in love with her and she is with me too. But she has a whole other life now with her affair guy. So I think in my situation the best thing for me to do is step back and remember why we are in the possition we are in. Why is she my EX? Do I really want someone who could cause so much hurt and lieing in my life. Wether or not I love her doesnt matter, it what I have if I accept her back into my life.
Maybe you should consider the same. No matter how you feel, your taking a woman back that is capable of doing it again to this "other" guy. Why would she stop there if she decided to leave you?
Either way though I wish you the best of luck with it all. We have some hard lessons of love in our lifespan and it never seems to get easier. But really, good luck with it.
And Merry Happy whatever you celebrate, and hope Santa brings you some goodies....
My ex actually visited me today as well. Im still very much in love with her and she is with me too. But she has a whole other life now with her affair guy. So I think in my situation the best thing for me to do is step back and remember why we are in the possition we are in. Why is she my EX? Do I really want someone who could cause so much hurt and lieing in my life. Wether or not I love her doesnt matter, it what I have if I accept her back into my life.
Maybe you should consider the same. No matter how you feel, your taking a woman back that is capable of doing it again to this "other" guy. Why would she stop there if she decided to leave you?
Either way though I wish you the best of luck with it all. We have some hard lessons of love in our lifespan and it never seems to get easier. But really, good luck with it.
And Merry Happy whatever you celebrate, and hope Santa brings you some goodies....
kreatinkaos:
Happy Holidays
Well things took a turn towards the brighter side last night. WHile talking to my ex, which we still do a lot of, she said she missed me and loved me and how she had hopes for us to get back together. None of this is new...her belief is that she needed a break..and for reasons I won't go into I think she really did...
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photopro:
the blade is decent but a little thin. should be fine for necks, but wouldn't try to seperate thicker parts of the body.
Chen's "Mushashi" is a half inch(?) longer with a significantly thicker blade.
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the blade is decent but a little thin. should be fine for necks, but wouldn't try to seperate thicker parts of the body.
Chen's "Mushashi" is a half inch(?) longer with a significantly thicker blade.
[Edited on Dec 21, 2004 9:28PM]
_bossanova_:
Thanks for the loving thoughts, dear. I hope things with your ex get better, without your poor tummy getting worse.
Stay warm and have a lovely, lovely holiday!



I'm gonna say sorry right now for any typos. I'm dyslexic...and I've taken two vicodin and two Triple Blacks...so I'm starting to get fuzzy around my edges.
Right now...I feel fine. My heart aches...I'm very sad...I miss her very very much...but I'm fine.
I feel the urge to do things...things I haven't done in awhile. I mean besides sex.
I Wanna draw again. When I...
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Right now...I feel fine. My heart aches...I'm very sad...I miss her very very much...but I'm fine.
I feel the urge to do things...things I haven't done in awhile. I mean besides sex.
I Wanna draw again. When I...
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arachnequarius:
hee - slaps make a lovely addition to any dirty sex dreams.
be well!
be well!
kreatinkaos:
I've come to the conclusion that I need a new hobby , so I've decided to take up the ancient lost art of cement shoemaking , my doctors say a new hobby will help lower my blood pressure too
I had a nightmare last night...well this morning. I couldn't get to sleep until 5...which is when I normally get up. It was a quick dream thing. My ex called me and just said..."Well...I just called to say...Goodbye. So...goodbye." That was it. I woke right up and felt like I had been kicked in the stomach.
I have no energy to do anything. I'm supposed...
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welntaod:
It's amazing how much joy a sammich can release! My favs are Peanut Butter & Orange Marmelade.
poetik:
One of the weidest things that happened to me was to have a weird dream about my ex, and realizing that a part of it was true! She'd moved out of the state, and I dreamt she was back, and she was!
What made that dream suck even more is that in it, she was trying to kill me...
needless to say, I hvaen't seen her since she got back.
What made that dream suck even more is that in it, she was trying to kill me...
Well things are better for me....and...a little more confusing. My ex and I are talking alot...which is good. And she still loves me...and hopes to someday get back together with me. But...if she feels that way why not now? What does she see in the fat fucker she's with now? What can he offer her that I can't?
I stil turn her on....which makes me...
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kreatinkaos:
Nice to meet you last night at the SGCT holiday party , hope to see you at local events in the future
elmcitydrunk:
glad you came out last night and happy to hear that you enjoyed it. it was great to meet you.
I feel cold...inside and out. I've been eating which is good...and actually eating healthy. I've lost a lot of weight...and I've been working out a lot more. I've lost a couple inches too. To put my belt on I have to pull it away from me..otherwise I have trouble closing the buckle. I should drill a new hole or two.
I hope everyone is doing...
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girly:
That's what I told them a few months ago. I'll have to try it again if they call back.
How are you doing? *hug*
How are you doing? *hug*
nellichaos:
again, thanks for the kindness. i really needed it. i am actually feeling quite better. i think that what i really needed was some closure, which i now have. i'll miss him, but it's not like we'll never see eachother again...i always see him (which is what has made things kind of hard sometimes).
i've noticed when my relationships end and i am not the one to end them, we generally end up getting back together about 5-6 monthes after the split....who knows. people and things and life are weird.
i actually met a guy that seemed to be super cool......we've talked on the phone a couple times and i've known who he is for months and months...unfortunatly, he sent me an email yesterday telling me that he has a girlfriend. he says that he can feel things coming to an end between the two of them...but i'd hate to be the reason why things came to an end, ya know?
yes.....it is cool that we have the same birthday!!!!
i've noticed when my relationships end and i am not the one to end them, we generally end up getting back together about 5-6 monthes after the split....who knows. people and things and life are weird.
i actually met a guy that seemed to be super cool......we've talked on the phone a couple times and i've known who he is for months and months...unfortunatly, he sent me an email yesterday telling me that he has a girlfriend. he says that he can feel things coming to an end between the two of them...but i'd hate to be the reason why things came to an end, ya know?
yes.....it is cool that we have the same birthday!!!!
*sigh* I'm so messed up. One moment I feel really good and hopeful...the next so dpressed...the next cold...the next angry.
She's spending the weekend with this new guy she's "seeing" and it tears me up.
I understand she has to explore other relationships...she's very young and hadn't really had a real relationship before me. I'm very grateful that she was honest with me and told...
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She's spending the weekend with this new guy she's "seeing" and it tears me up.
I understand she has to explore other relationships...she's very young and hadn't really had a real relationship before me. I'm very grateful that she was honest with me and told...
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bcguitar33:
For what it's worth, before my parents got married, my dad told my mom he needed a break because he'd never dated around. He did so for a short while and then came back to her, and they were wed, and had a reasonably successful marriage, by today's standards. Of course, now they're getting divorced, but that's unrelated. Better now than later, and better honestly than deceitfully. Of course, it still fuckin kills, but maybe that'll get you to sleep a second sooner at night.
nellichaos:
wow...that is a really really rough thing for you man. it sounds like you are having a harder time than i am really. but i do appreciate that you commented to my story. i guess that things are totally over now. he and i talked today....it's all in my journal if you care to read it. thing just truely suck.
his birthday is next week and i still have gifts for him...which he's going to get, which he knows he is going to get. all i can do now is try to realise that things are over and just try to move on...
on another note...we have the same birthday! that's pretty cool, right?
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his birthday is next week and i still have gifts for him...which he's going to get, which he knows he is going to get. all i can do now is try to realise that things are over and just try to move on...
on another note...we have the same birthday! that's pretty cool, right?
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Things are not good...but better. Still alive....I know because the pain tells me so.
I hope everyone is doing well.
If you're reading this and need anything....ask me. If I can help...I will.
Take care...
Remember: -"When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are...
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I hope everyone is doing well.
If you're reading this and need anything....ask me. If I can help...I will.
Take care...
Remember: -"When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are...
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danielk:
Yeah, I know. It's a habit. Like, I have a hard time hitting the 'submit comment' button if I haven't signed the post. It just feels wrong. It's like the cigarette after the sex. You don't need to, but you feel like something is missing if you don't.
Daniel
Daniel
danielk:
I guess I've been serious about photography for about 9 or 10 months now. And, yeah, nothing inspires one's creativity like hot naked chicks.
Daniel
Daniel