If I had a bottle of sleeping pills right now...I would..1) Wonder where the fuck they came from..
and B) Pop those things down like fuckin Tic-Tacs (tm).
The Princess Bride is on. One of my favorite movies...it hurts so badly to watch without her.
I am a very outwardly strong person. I am also someone who can keep a strong reign of my emotions...but my heart is broken...
so broken.
With any luck I can drink myself to death.
Wish me luck.
A girl asked a boy if she was pretty, he... Read More
My heart is broken. My girlfriend just broke up with me. In an instant the life I had planned is gone. It's one of the weirdest feelings I've ever had. I...have no idea what's ahead. It's like driving into a thick fogbank at night with your highbeams on.
I feel empty...and yet...I can feel bitterness and anger filling the void.
I understand her reasons. I... Read More
I know the whole world looks like shit but that's no reason to leave it. I know you're not planning to but even at rock bottom there are still laughs to be had.
That comic helps me, sometimes. When you feel like you have nothing to lose, live that way. Stay up way too late and watch TV. Do something stupid. Do a lot of stupid things. Do things to make it feel worthwhile to be you again. And if you need to chat, I'll be on AIM all night.
Kidding...
anyways. I wanted to say hi to all my fans and friends. Then of course that got me thinking...and then I remembered I don't have any fans. *sigh*
I'll never be a movie star. I'll never be famous.
At first I wanted to be rich and famous...then I heard someone smart say, "Try being rich first. See if that fits the... Read More
Thanks for checking up on me =).
To answer your question, I'm doing every piece of the MMORPG. I'm coming up with the concepts, doing all the programming, etc. etc. It keeps me entertained.
No way I could make a 3d game...not in that single-year timespan, anyway. And not with other classeson my schedule. No, it'll be in the 2D Allegro library that a lot of 8 and 16 bit console video games used. Think final fantasy 1. No, think shittier-looking.
I have three ferrets two somewhat older ones and a tiny baby. They are all so veryvery cute and I love them to death. Sadly there are problems...
my female doesn't like the baby ferret. She attacks him. It makes me very sad right now. I'm workign with them but it can take awhile...or forever for them to get along.
I'm feeling better from my... Read More
I have changed my mind abotu the 16 hour days of work. I would rather work those then get food poisoning. I do not like getting it at all. Nope. Way up there on the craptastic list.
I'm feeling better now. After a night of delerium, shivers tossing my cookies and the other thing I'm still sick but way better.
My favorite part was not... Read More
I recommend that if you are very able to NOT work a 16 hour day or more...that you do everything you can to do so. They suck. Not the longest stretch I've worked but still...it takes its toll.
I think I am now becoming an official small animals wrangler. I have 5 rats (soonish to be 6), 3 ferrets (one is a tiny baby) and... Read More
I'm tired. Mostly due to the screwed up work hours this past week. I had to be up at 3:30 each morning...which is not a normal thing. I mean it's okay to be up at that hour...if yer at a party that lasts that long..or you're putting in chatting hours to get that girl...stuff like that it's okay. To go to work...not so much. Work... Read More
Ikea is taking over the world with their stupidly named furniture and their frustratingly obscure instructions.
I have no idea how to get up at 3:30 everyday - I am so sorry that you had to do it.
My students mess up "ing" all the time - it is one of those things - they all know the ending and they race through it when they write and just throw the three letters in wherever it feels right "nig, ign" whatever.
I think that might be it. I don't have that much experience with death - my siblings are alive as well as my parents and none of my really close friends have died, thank god.
If there is anything I can do for you - just let me know.
Me and the gf went to Lake Compounce today. I took her to the Haunted Graveyard thing.
She screamed and screamed and cried at the end.
She loved it!!
I laughed through the entire thing because she just kept screaming at everything that went on. The people who were working there loved her since she was such an easy mark.
We also went on Boulder... Read More
I misseses you too. I was just a bit consumed with horrible sadness at my work - but I am determined to be flakey and be around SG more in the next few months.
I am also a screamer. I mean that in a remarkably clean way.
M*wa! That's to all the female people who read my journal, extra smooches to those on my friends list. To the males who might stop by...well...none for you. Sorry but stubble hurts my lips...and guys are narsty!!!
So I get to see my girlfriend tomorrow and for the weekend!!
I'm going to make her some chicken with a garlic butter sauce, mixed veggies and rice...it... Read More
Some parents get all weird and upset when they realize that teacher doesn't = omnipotent one. Some parents and children go out of their way to prove you are wrong.
I was in Buffalo two days ago.
You are a boy but you aren't narsty. You are sexy and witty and unambitious. yum.
You know, I could swear we were friends when I was on SG last year. How have you been?