So all the plans I made for this weekend have fallen through. I was supposed to go see a movie tonight with my friend Kelly and 4 of her co-workers. It was a girls night out..mostly because Kelly's boyfrind was scared of seeing "White Noise". I don't balme him...he works with servers and stuff so is surrounded by white noise all day. But I still mock him. 
Anyways one of her friend's from work is supposed to me cute and single. I was hoping to, at the very least, be distracted by the idea of maybe getting involved with someone new. I don't think I would haev actually tried to really "do anything" with her....I don't really want to be seeing anyone else...but...I'm lonely and the company would have been nice.
I was also supposed to have a female friend come over for the weekend. She's a friend from a while ago...I dated her sister and we've alwasy been close. Nothing was happening there either but again...I need the distraction. I need someone to comfort me...maybe hold me....
She had to cancel....so...
I took the last of my vicodins and drank a huge rum and coke.
In part I was hoping to die....just slip away into sleep and death. But really my plan was to just pass out and not be awake for the slow ache building in me.
Suffice to say not a whole hell of alot happened. I'm a little dizzy...but...not really anythin..*THUD*
Heh heh! Kidding! I'm still here! Oh wait..this is all in text...you can't hear me. *ahem* Nevermind.
I hope everyone is doing well. I'm okay overall....lonely...very sad...heartbroken...but..I guess okay.
If anyone needs anything please don't be afraid or embarassed to ask.
Take care all.
Remember: "THE MESSAGE."
by John Donne
SEND home my long stray'd eyes to me,
Which, O ! too long have dwelt on thee ;
Yet since there they have learn'd such ill,
Such forced fashions,
And false passions,
That they be
Made by thee
Fit for no good sight, keep them still.
Send home my harmless heart again,
Which no unworthy thought could stain ;
Which if it be taught by thine
To make jestings
Of protestings,
And break both
Word and oath,
Keep it, for then 'tis none of mine.
Yet send me back my heart and eyes,
That I may know, and see thy lies,
And may laugh and joy, when thou
Art in anguish
And dost languish
For some one
That will none,
Or prove as false as thou art now.
Anyways one of her friend's from work is supposed to me cute and single. I was hoping to, at the very least, be distracted by the idea of maybe getting involved with someone new. I don't think I would haev actually tried to really "do anything" with her....I don't really want to be seeing anyone else...but...I'm lonely and the company would have been nice.
I was also supposed to have a female friend come over for the weekend. She's a friend from a while ago...I dated her sister and we've alwasy been close. Nothing was happening there either but again...I need the distraction. I need someone to comfort me...maybe hold me....
She had to cancel....so...
I took the last of my vicodins and drank a huge rum and coke.
In part I was hoping to die....just slip away into sleep and death. But really my plan was to just pass out and not be awake for the slow ache building in me.
Suffice to say not a whole hell of alot happened. I'm a little dizzy...but...not really anythin..*THUD*
Heh heh! Kidding! I'm still here! Oh wait..this is all in text...you can't hear me. *ahem* Nevermind.
I hope everyone is doing well. I'm okay overall....lonely...very sad...heartbroken...but..I guess okay.
If anyone needs anything please don't be afraid or embarassed to ask.
Take care all.
Remember: "THE MESSAGE."
by John Donne
SEND home my long stray'd eyes to me,
Which, O ! too long have dwelt on thee ;
Yet since there they have learn'd such ill,
Such forced fashions,
And false passions,
That they be
Made by thee
Fit for no good sight, keep them still.
Send home my harmless heart again,
Which no unworthy thought could stain ;
Which if it be taught by thine
To make jestings
Of protestings,
And break both
Word and oath,
Keep it, for then 'tis none of mine.
Yet send me back my heart and eyes,
That I may know, and see thy lies,
And may laugh and joy, when thou
Art in anguish
And dost languish
For some one
That will none,
Or prove as false as thou art now.
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allied:
Hmmmm, I smell a night out scoping for some hotties! What do you say?
allied:
No problem, Man. 
BTW, I wasn't talking about last night or tonight; I was thinking sometime in the future. I'll play wingman. 
BTW, I wasn't talking about last night or tonight; I was thinking sometime in the future. I'll play wingman.