robscarlett

Well things are better for me....and...a little more confusing. My ex and I are talking alot...which is good. And she still loves me...and hopes to someday get back together with me. But...if she feels that way why not now? What does she see in the fat fucker she's with now? What can he offer her that I can't?
I stil turn her on....which makes me happy. I love turning her on. It's always been special with her. Like my feelings feed off of hers and hers from mine...back and forth...building. It's an awsome sensation.
I miss her. This holiday is going to be so rough. I've never been a big fan of holidays. Coming from a broken home (insert boo-fucking-hoo here) they have always been somethign I've avoided. I've been enjoying them more the past couple of years but this was the first I was looking forward to. That kind of fell apart since we broke up. I had to re-think most of my gifts...and cut back. It's been a little hard to scramble to do.
I just have to "buy" the last big one and I'm all set. I don't know when she will be getting her gifts though...since she's gotta spend time with her family...and her fucktard...makes me wanna just throw them all out.
I'm gonna go clean and drink. I hope everyone is doing well. If you need anything please feel free to ask me....as always I'm willing to help if I can.
Take care.

Edit: Had a good time at the SGCT party. Met a bunch of nice people. Made them laugh...laughed myself. Was relaly tired still so I bailed out early..like....12:30. Still...good times. Thanks to all who made me feel welcome.
Remember- "Tears are like kisses. Both come from the heart when there are words you just can't say."-Unknown