You'd think getting over someone would be easier.
I mean, for the most part, I know in my mind it wouldn't have worked out, but my heart doesn't want to believe it.
Stupid everything.
This 'being in debt' thing is really kicking my ass too. I have $30,000 left to pay off, basically by next September. I've been trying my hardest to cut expenses, not spend much, and scrimp and save. This year is basically a bit of a write-off, aka my 'year of suffering' if you will. But it's a means to an end. Sure, the next 14-ish months are going to suck ass, but once I can say "I'm debt free" - that's gonna change my life.
So Monday is the big day. Starting my new diet, and also starting P90X. Everyone tells me it's going to kick my ass. I have no doubts about this. It's not going to be an easy next 3 months. But, I'm going to stay dedicated to it. I want to lose that last 40 pounds. It will significantly help my self esteem, as well as help my heart condition too. So, more suffering, for a greater good.
Took my car off the road for the next 4-6 months. By doing so, I save around $200 a month, give or take. That will be pretty helpful. I sock away $400 a month already for my debt, so $600 will be even better. I should at least be able to pay off my credit card in 4 months. One less thing to worry about. I will ride my bicycle, walk, take public transit, and ride my motorbike as much as possible, in an effort to save bucks, and well, hopefully get fit too.
Girl has been creeping my facebook a lot. She's halfway around the world, with limited internet access, yet, manages to check up with what I'm doing. We still don't talk. I should stop caring, but somehow I can't.
I also miss my best friend Teenie. She's my favorite person in the whole world. She's on a road-trip with her boyfriend, and I think she's not having much fun with it. Sucks. I wish I could move to Utah to be with her. But, it's not in the cards for me. Who knows where life will take me once I'm out of debt though. We'll see.
I've been a bit down in the dumps lately. Not sure why.
Parents leave for Europe tomorrow. I get to take care of my sisters dog for 2 weeks while she's in europe as well. I also get part 1 of my sleeves tomorrow. So that will be kind of cool. I've been wanting new tattoos for a long time. Sleeves are going to be sweet.
Blah. My mind is so scattered lately, my emotions are everywhere, and I hate my job a lot. I'm on thin ice there, and have a feeling they'll cut me soon. That is going to fuck my plans to get out of debt. But, I'm too lazy to look for a new job. There are a ton out there, its just, I'm comfortable where I am. I should stop being lazy and find something else while I'm still employed.
But thats enough whiney-whiney out of me for one night.
I mean, for the most part, I know in my mind it wouldn't have worked out, but my heart doesn't want to believe it.
Stupid everything.
This 'being in debt' thing is really kicking my ass too. I have $30,000 left to pay off, basically by next September. I've been trying my hardest to cut expenses, not spend much, and scrimp and save. This year is basically a bit of a write-off, aka my 'year of suffering' if you will. But it's a means to an end. Sure, the next 14-ish months are going to suck ass, but once I can say "I'm debt free" - that's gonna change my life.
So Monday is the big day. Starting my new diet, and also starting P90X. Everyone tells me it's going to kick my ass. I have no doubts about this. It's not going to be an easy next 3 months. But, I'm going to stay dedicated to it. I want to lose that last 40 pounds. It will significantly help my self esteem, as well as help my heart condition too. So, more suffering, for a greater good.
Took my car off the road for the next 4-6 months. By doing so, I save around $200 a month, give or take. That will be pretty helpful. I sock away $400 a month already for my debt, so $600 will be even better. I should at least be able to pay off my credit card in 4 months. One less thing to worry about. I will ride my bicycle, walk, take public transit, and ride my motorbike as much as possible, in an effort to save bucks, and well, hopefully get fit too.
Girl has been creeping my facebook a lot. She's halfway around the world, with limited internet access, yet, manages to check up with what I'm doing. We still don't talk. I should stop caring, but somehow I can't.
I also miss my best friend Teenie. She's my favorite person in the whole world. She's on a road-trip with her boyfriend, and I think she's not having much fun with it. Sucks. I wish I could move to Utah to be with her. But, it's not in the cards for me. Who knows where life will take me once I'm out of debt though. We'll see.
I've been a bit down in the dumps lately. Not sure why.
Parents leave for Europe tomorrow. I get to take care of my sisters dog for 2 weeks while she's in europe as well. I also get part 1 of my sleeves tomorrow. So that will be kind of cool. I've been wanting new tattoos for a long time. Sleeves are going to be sweet.
Blah. My mind is so scattered lately, my emotions are everywhere, and I hate my job a lot. I'm on thin ice there, and have a feeling they'll cut me soon. That is going to fuck my plans to get out of debt. But, I'm too lazy to look for a new job. There are a ton out there, its just, I'm comfortable where I am. I should stop being lazy and find something else while I'm still employed.
But thats enough whiney-whiney out of me for one night.
I hope your plans work out for you and the job and getting over her will work out for you.
I'm sure the beginning of what shall be known as " the months without pants" will also help your mood, I mean, how could it NOT.