i'm in a rut.
i have a sort of pervasive feeling of unattractiveness that goes beyond mere acceptance that i am not a supermodel. it's very akin to poisoned thought and i think i'm allowing it to affect the way i carry myself and thus make me less attractive. like a cloud that follows me that i am also making.
but today i saw a cute hippie chick with a green belt. i bummed a smoke off of her and flirted and it became very clear to me that if i wanted her number or something, i could have it. of course i didn't want the number. i didn't even want the cigarette. i just wanted to see if she'd act like i wasn't some horrible ghoul slumping up to her and demanding things. after a smiling goodbye, i tossed the smoke.
thus i have decided to run. i think that if i run on my break every day until my next belt test, it will not only vastly improve my stamina, but make me feel better and put me in better shape which might actually help me look less like a rat that learned to speak and walk erect. time will tell on that last bit. i'm pretty damn ratty.
i have a sort of pervasive feeling of unattractiveness that goes beyond mere acceptance that i am not a supermodel. it's very akin to poisoned thought and i think i'm allowing it to affect the way i carry myself and thus make me less attractive. like a cloud that follows me that i am also making.
but today i saw a cute hippie chick with a green belt. i bummed a smoke off of her and flirted and it became very clear to me that if i wanted her number or something, i could have it. of course i didn't want the number. i didn't even want the cigarette. i just wanted to see if she'd act like i wasn't some horrible ghoul slumping up to her and demanding things. after a smiling goodbye, i tossed the smoke.
thus i have decided to run. i think that if i run on my break every day until my next belt test, it will not only vastly improve my stamina, but make me feel better and put me in better shape which might actually help me look less like a rat that learned to speak and walk erect. time will tell on that last bit. i'm pretty damn ratty.
cfq:
i really don't think you should look down on yourself. you're very attractive, physically.... tho i dont like the bald head... still, you have a very attractive personality and you're an awesome person. If you weren't married and closer.,....I'd so try and tap that ass. but only if we wear out tin foil hats!!