she asked me to be her valentine. then she asked me to be her boyfriend again. then she went on and on about how much she wanted me. she did all of this right out in chat. this coming from the girl who hates pda and keeps so much a secret. needless to say, it helped... Read More
one more little cut across the wrist
nowhere strong enough to make a fist
as if somehow i'd bother to resist
as if by now there's something to be missed
you non chalantly spin your little drill
you watch, impassive, as the hull begins to fill
you shrug your shoulders, mutter, "come what will."
and comment that my pleas are getting shrill
counting all the little taps
that flicker in my wrist
that incessant reminder
that i constantly exist
focus on the breathing
focus on the air
and try to think like you:
"if i don't see it isn't there."
this will take some practicing
this will take some discipline
if i am manufacturing
this very foreign medicine
i will stay if you let me stay
and i'll go if you let me go
but i won't go far away
because you're my only home
and i'll hide what you want hidden
and i'll roam if you say roam
but i'd just as soon you didn't
because you're my only home
i don't care what happens
or why
or when
i don't care if the sky falls down
the earth bucklels
the oceans turn to dust
nothing matters except your hand in mine
nothing matters but your hand in mine
and man and earth and god and time
will never stop this fire in my heart
i don't care what happens
just hold my hand tonight.
she said she was depressed and not herself anymore. she said she needed to work on herself and figure things out. she said she didn't want me there while that was happening. she said she loved me.
she's gone anonymous on the site and deleted her aim screen name. she's not going to answer any calls from me and will most likely... Read More
she's buying her plane ticket friday. on the seventeenth of february she'll fly up and i'll get to keep her for five days. i'm so excited. and nervous. even though its the second visit, i still get all sorts of butterflies in my stomach when i think about her coming here. it's been so long.
