he got into a head on collision while swerving to avoid another car. he wasn't wearing a seat belt and the steering wheel crushed his chest and ruptured his heart. he was 20.
wtf, right?
i keep trying to imagine his dead body in the casket and i simply can't. it is beyond surreal. the idea that someone can exist on... Read More
i'm coming to realize how little people at work actually care about me.
i have been talking about my martial arts test for EVER. people have seen me practicing for it. now that it's over, people have witnessed me limping around (goddamn test fucking hobbled me for some reason. probably all the running.) but not a single person has asked me how it went. the... Read More
It's hard to say that because people don't seem interested in your achievements that they absolutely don't care about you...I know that it can be hard to relate to other people's interest and it's much easier to move on than to pretend you know what someone is talking about. I'd say it actually hurts worse when someone leads you to talk their ear off and then have no idea what you said. I've pretty much given up talking to most people about the things I like unless I know they have some interest or knowledge of it...Sad but true.
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People are people, man. Truth is, you probably DO invest a lot into people and it's not always (or even half the time) reciprocated. Some people are more caring, considerate and deliberate about their feelings than others. You gotta get correct with yourself and let it be, or else it will destroy you from the inside and it'll perpetuate itself and the worse you'll get, the less you'll feel like anyone notices or cares about your decline. I've seen it! Don't let it get there! Fight it, member-formerly-known-as-RobotFuckFace-and currently-known-as-Mizoo-in-what-can-only-be-described-as-the-SG-version-of-Freaky-Friday. Fight it!
no roof you say. well... first it was the toxic avengers house, then it was the house without a roof (can it actually be called a house without a roof?), whats next? moving into the fortress of solitude?
Take a foam rubber panda shaped coffin and wiggle your way inside, all the while ignoring your mounting claustrophobia and the cold sweat pooled in the finger and coating the inside of the arms. pin the whole thing in place, really letting your claustrophobia KNOW that you're trapped in this suffocating thing. add a huge helmet with... Read More
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we all know i love the truth and i'll stop at nothing to get it
i want to know who is honest with me so i can keep them around and who lies and kick them in the face and move on.
i just watched a child puke five feet across a room. then i had the pleasure of mopping it up. then i wrestled an autistic kid onto his mat five hundred fucking times, all while my daughter wept and told me from her mat that she didn't want to live in my family anymore.
true i'd give my right arm
to keep you safe from harm
and true for you i'd move to ecuador
and i'd keep a little farm
chop wood to keep you warm
but i don't really love you anymore
i don't have to love you now if i don't wish to
i won't see you... Read More
the house nic and i were planning on perhaps putting an offer was in no means perfect. apparently there was such a basement leakage problem that our realtor described it as a "flowing river." but nic researched sealing a basement, and as far as we could tell it wouldn't be too bad and we could take it off the sales price. it had lots of... Read More
very likely a man-made hill from the sounds of it... i know it sucks but, if you wanna look at the positive side of things, be happy you didn't find out about the sludge until it was too late... as i found out the hard way, once the deal is done, you're screwed. case in point: when we bought our place, it turned out all but one appliance that came with it was faulty. they had all been "rigged" to APPEAR to be in fine functioning condition for a quick walk-through/test like one usually does when checking out a potential property... we only found out from full usage after the fact that there were faults.... not as big a deal as fucking buried oil drums i'll grant you, but, there was no recourse for us on the appliances once the deal was done... anyway, my point: disappointing as i'm sure it is, be glad your realtor picked up on this now rather than later
Bummer, but what skulletor said...better now than later.
I'm getting anxious about going to look at this neat apartment I found for the same reason. I'm so excited from what I've seen but afraid it'll be a dump.
Good luck with the house search!
It's very unnerving when you find out that someone you know has passed
how sudden
youthful death is horrible
but, when my friend, Eryn died, at 18, her dad hugged me and cried and told me ..."Only the good die young."