Here is a little survey thing I saw so I'm gonna fill it out.

How Are You?
I'm doin good. I could be better, but I'm not complaining.

Are you free?
Not as free as I'd like to be at the moment.

Describe your current state.
Apathetic

When was the last time you had a good scream?
I don't know. I think i'm gonna scream after this is done.

When was the last time you had a good laugh?
Today. I like to laugh. Unfortunately, not many people witness it. But i laugh a lot at stupid shit.

When was the last time you had a good conversation?
I have pretty good daily conversations with people.

Where do you wish to be right now?
Thats a really hard question. Where wouldnt i want to be right now? I'd want to be everywhere I could think of.

What do you wish for right now?
I dont really like wishing for things. If i want something, I'll go get it myself. Although, I do wish someone was here to enjoy this great music with me and sit around with me and do whatever. Actually, I wish i could get out of the state i'm in and be who i used to be years ago when i knew exactly what made me happy.

Do you miss anyone?
I do. I need to talk to these people again.

Do you love anyone?
I do. I love bEe and a few others.

Which albums you currently listening to?
Neutral Milk Hotel - In The Aeroplane Over The Sea
Grandaddy - The Sophtware Slump
The Beatles - Anthology
British Sea Power - Open Season
Gridlock - Further

Whats the latest crazy thing you did?
Crazy cause it's Stupid...I gave myself a chemical burn on my wrist. Its really fucked up and it looks like i tried to kill myself. a thick layer of skin is peeling off (i pulled off most of it to reveal the skin underneath. At least its breathing now and its starting to heal.

What do u dread most currently?
Driving to work...work isnt so bad when i get there.

Whats driving you insane currently?
The thought that i've lost who i was. Its coming back to me slowly. I seem really distant to others and to myself. I'm really not distant and i'm really not a bad person. I swear I have interests and thoughts and ideas. They just have a hard time coming out recently. But I'm fixing that. At least I know whats wrong.

Who are you grateful for?
bEe. She doesn't know just how much she means to me.

What do you want to say?
I am working towards becoming who i like to be, rather than who i want to be. When i become who i like to be, i will become who i want to be. its hard to explain, but hopefully you understand. Also, i removed all my piercings today. They made too much noise and it made my face feel cluttered.

Whats your next plan?
To learn to express my thoughts and ideas the way I'm meant to, the way I used to. Everything is changing for the better.

Got lyrics?
Yeah sure.

Grandaddy - Now It's On

Now that the lake's in place
Where the sea use to be
It seems that I'm seasoned to be
In a season of the old me

I wouldn't trade my place
I got no reason to be
Weathered and withering
Like in the season of the old me

Bust the lock off the front door
Once you're outside you won't want to hide anymore
Light the light on the front porch
Once it's on you're never wanna turn it off anymore
And now it's on

Now it's on

Now that the lake's in place
Where the dead sea used to be
It seems that I'm seasoned to be
In the season of the old me
I wouldn't trade my place
I got no reason to be
Weathered and Withering
Like in the season of the old me

Bust the lock off the front door
Once you're outside you won't want to hide anymore
Light the light on the front porch
Once it's on you're never wanna turn it off anymore
And now it's on

And now it's on
And now it's on
And now it's on
Now it's on
Now it's on

Anything else to share?
yeah. if you've read this far. thanks.