You know what's hot? Women in fake moustaches. Big, ridiculous French-style moustaches.. I was reluctant to link to that because I'm always worried that people will take offense when I admit to finding them attractive, but I really felt the need to illustrate my point. The moustache fetish actually dates back to a couple of years ago when I saw the girl from Belle and Sebastian in one. Anyyywaaayyy....
So even though that whole running away thing was ill-conceived and ridiculously unrealistic, it was a step in the right direction. If I can scrounge up enough resolve and enthusiasm to create and get behind a shitty plan, then surely I can do the same for a good one! Because I'm tired of the ennui and melancholy and, more importantly, everyone else is tired of me being all about nothing but the ennui and melancholy. If I'm after anything, it's your approval.
So what I have so far is "go to your classes this time and learn things". Also, "remember that locking yourself in your room and spending the majority of your day under a blanket is by far the shittiest means of rising above depression that's ever been devised". It's called learning from your mistakes, bitch. Finally, "don't expect other people to save you when it isn't their job to." Then again, that actually was my counselor's job and she still didn't do much of anything for me. The point is that it's up to either me or Jesus, and logic states that I'm better off depending on the guy I know exists.
Everyone keeps saying I should join a club or something when I get back to school too.
P.S. 70% sure I'll have an apartment to live in when I get back to PSU and 89% sure they'll let me attend classes.
So even though that whole running away thing was ill-conceived and ridiculously unrealistic, it was a step in the right direction. If I can scrounge up enough resolve and enthusiasm to create and get behind a shitty plan, then surely I can do the same for a good one! Because I'm tired of the ennui and melancholy and, more importantly, everyone else is tired of me being all about nothing but the ennui and melancholy. If I'm after anything, it's your approval.
So what I have so far is "go to your classes this time and learn things". Also, "remember that locking yourself in your room and spending the majority of your day under a blanket is by far the shittiest means of rising above depression that's ever been devised". It's called learning from your mistakes, bitch. Finally, "don't expect other people to save you when it isn't their job to." Then again, that actually was my counselor's job and she still didn't do much of anything for me. The point is that it's up to either me or Jesus, and logic states that I'm better off depending on the guy I know exists.
Everyone keeps saying I should join a club or something when I get back to school too.
P.S. 70% sure I'll have an apartment to live in when I get back to PSU and 89% sure they'll let me attend classes.
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finch:
while i'd definitely be willing to do that for you, i don't know when i'll be able to. tomorrow i move, tuesday and wednesday i work pretty much all day (both jobs), thursday i've gotta be in my apartment after work because i'm getting furniture delivered, and friday i'm headed to pittsburgh 
necia:
Aside from the whole women-in-fake-moustaches part, I hear ya. Depression is a bitch to unlearn, if that makes sense. I'm going to assume that it does, to you. 