What is wrong with people? So, I have been talking to a friend about how I have been feeling lately.. where my head is.. how hard it has been for me to function with a smile on my face. After talking a bit, we started exploring one of the major reasons I feel so.. worthless. Having a woman who "loves" me toss me to the side like nothing.. and move on right in front of me.. has done a number on me and my mental health. It is really hard to feel worth anything when you are treated like that. How expendable am I? My friend went on to talk about how society mostly doesnt care about others. He used an example of this girl he just hired for seasonal work, who broke up with her long term boyfriend so that she could date another guy (who was hired seasonally). There are no feeling attached to this. He claims that everyone is dead inside. And for the most part I would have to agree.
We have become a society that does not care about others, we just pretend to care so that we give the impression of being good. I hate it. I think I am very in touch with my feelings, and therefor am more subject to negative feelings from these stone people. Should I become more dead inside to protect myself? What has caused us to get to this point as a people? Is it technology? Have we lost our humanity because we are so devoted to machines?
Its hard for me to blame technology, seeing as I work with tech.. I play a ton of games, watch movies, have all of the social media accounts.. and I still want to spend my time around people. I still want to do nice things for people. I still want to make those around me feel important and happy. So what has caused us to not be able to reach out and support each other? What has caused us to be so ruthless and not care about anothers feelings?
I have found myself questioning people a lot. Everyone seems to act so shady.. and everyone has come to just expect that. So when I am trying to be genuine, someone thinks I have different motives. Can anyone explain human behaviour?
I hate lying. I hate cheating. And everywhere I look, there is lies and cheats.. Do I belong in this world?
Im a simple guy I think. I take great pleasure in the small things. Like I just had a post on my profile wishing me a great weekend.. I feel great now! I want to say I dont crave attention.. but I think everyone does to a degree. I do feel good when people say nice things.
I am pretty excited for this show tonight.. I am counting down the hours until time to go.. I figure I will need to leave here in about.. 3 hours. I am hoping to take a bunch of pictures.. so that will be my update for tomorrow will have a fun update!
