Got your attention? So.. I dont mean that in a fetish way.. I mean lesbians are great and all.. but a lesbian doesnt want to be with me. I realize that probably 90% of females that I see that I am like "She looks hella cute.. I want to ask her out" are lesbians. So.. apparently I guess I am attracted to lesbians? But not the way that most would think. Its a curse lol.
Bright side is that has led to me having a bunch of lesbian friends. Silver linings. I think my favorite part is when I feel rejected and worthless.. my lesbian friends are the first to say "If I liked dudes.." haha. I guess that is flattering. I also have lots of female friends who are in relationships that tell me what a catch I am.. Is it weird of me to kind of be annoyed that all of the females in my life that are not going to be with me say that I am a great guy? lol. Oh well.
Somewhat.. depressing day. Its Thanksgiving! Happy Thanksgiving, Americans! How did I spend my day? Working.. from home. I spent around 12 hours of my day alone.. My family went to eat at my brother-in-laws parents house.. I had soup. Holidays are honestly really tough for me as is. I just want to spend a holiday with a girl I love and do all the cheesy holiday couple things.
I really am a big cheesy fool. I am having a crazy urge to travel somewhere.. where should I go? Seriously open to suggestions.. and strongly encourage blog participation lol. I wonder, when people describe their idea of the perfect girl/guy.. how unreasonable is it? Is there someone out there that would describe me as the perfect guy? Provacative. Im so random.. I feel like I am a bit of everything.. like Im the opposite with things. Im a super nerd. I love comic books, video games, movies, table top games, anime, puzzles.. But i also love going outside on walks, and bike rides, and sports. I love being in, but i love being out and social. Im an extrovert that likes a bunch of introvert things. Even my taste in music is all over. Oh and I love fitness.. but i am weird about it. So i love being around people, but sometimes i get anxious (thanks military). And when i work out i feel hella vulnerable. I love being around fit people that encourage me. But I also love to curl up on a couch with someone and watch movies/shows for hours.
Im a conundrum. Haha. Are any of you out there as.. all over the place as I am? lol. I am a bit under the influence at the moment.. and I just found cake. I am so happy right now, lol. No photo today.. I am literally about to get into bed. haha.