It's a lonley world. And sometimes when you have someone, they can make you feel even more alone. She says she doesn't mean to but it happens over and over again. Her life is so hetic that she's got time for everyone else but me? So am I making a big deal out of nothing or do I not know when to walk away from something? I'm not one to be a gutton for punishment but it seems this last year I am. One can only take so much........or recieve so little. I don't know. It just hurts when your lover is your best friend and you feel that's all you need in life.....that person pulls away and gives less and less. They don't take one person out of your life they take two. Maybe I'm just pathetic and need to get out and meet more people. But I don't like having a bunch of friends. Because I don't like to neglect people and I only have so much room for people. Right now I'm full to the top ya know? So there is a lot of my life that is no longer in my hands but in the hands of the people that surround me.........and I hate that feeling........ 