roach

well i am officially single. i am more pissed than anything. i have now had two serious and long relationships in my life and both ended because of drugs....not that i do them. i hate any kind of hard drugs and any drug that is not natural......fuck the chemicals. the sad thing is that now that both of my ex-lovers chose drugs over me i feel like i can not make someone feel as good as the drugs can.....am i not good enough????? i have been scarred.....i feel like my heart has been closed shut and the key is gone forever......fuck it i guess. i have to try and stay positive if i dont the anger will take over and i dont know what ill do. wow the single life i have been out of it for years now, kind of scarey. time to be as free as a bird