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This morning as I was thinking about waking up I get a phone call from a good friend (picture below) in the town I just left. She was crying right away and I am not used to answering the phone to this, my groggy mind was struggling to pick up the pieces and form a coherent picture of what was going on and what this noise was, thank you caller ID or I would have been asking who it was. Anyway once I figured out what was going on and got her to calm down and breath so I could understand what she was talking about and why she was crying. Turns out she is on day 12 of quitting smoking and now hates all her friends and herself, and she didn't know who else to call. In round about words she says she is thinking suicidal thoughts. At this point I'm thinking to myself "Well fuck, I don't have the emotional capabilities to understand what is going on or what i'm suppose to say in a situation like this". I tell her to take deep breathes and point out that it is probably that town, because it sucks and some of the things in her life that are good and that she shouldn't be sorry for calling me. At this point she says she has to go in an emotional type of way that vaguely tugged at some memory that told me I should call her back because she hung up on me. After a moment to turn off my alarm, I call her back, this seemed like it was the right thing to do from her reaction. We talked some more and I told her I'd call her this afternoon, (note to self: don't forget to do this). In all seriousness though I don't know what to say to her, she normally isn't the dramatic type, she suffers from chronic nightmares, something to do with her mother that died when she was a young teenager. She's living in a burned out ski bum town that blows now, and radiates some aura of depression. I don't have the emotional sophistication to handle things of this magnitude. Pointers welcome.