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Rolling in the dirt, forgetting what we are.

... anyway finding it hard to stay focused on any project, I keep wandering back to the apple site.

"Use the shovel, it digs the hole faster." the voice says
It is right, my hands grow raw digging this hole. No need to hurt myself more as I dig my own grave.

New desks, new chairs... tough to put together.

Today at 5pm, eye exam! Aside from having to spend money on something I feel is unnecessary, I'm pretty happy. Picking frames will be based probably on price and price alone, it's not like I have a sense of style anyway.

Last night I had a dream about someone I've never met, I asked her what her name was and she told me Angela Gold, she told me her middle name aswell but I had forgotten it by the time I got around to thinking about my dream. I have no idea who Angela Gold is, but I going to sketch her face this afternoon so...
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I should be working but I'm going to type this out anyway. On the night of the 21st I drove to Monterey, CA, crashed at my friends house. We were going to leave the next morning early for Idaho... he was avoiding giving me a straight answer as to when we were leaving so I knew I was in trouble. After he did everything he...
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back in California, detail at 11.

Motivation - the state or condition of being motivated.

This is not my problem.

Focus - to concentrate:to focus one's thoughts.

This is my problem.

Last night my imagination exploded as if I were 11 again, it spun out of control making my heart race and my head spin until I finally passed out, dreaming of the things triggered before sleep, waking randomly throughout the night, unable to tell dream from waking thought until the sun rose. It starts.

I have a general dislike for the world we live in and often escape to fantasy worlds, sometimes confusing reality with fantasy. I just finished (for now) the last available book in a fantasy series and have become depressed feeling as if those characters just disappeared, like knowing I'll never see a group of close friends again. Perhaps I need to attempt creating my own...
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The Burning Crusade cinematic was so good I cried.

Wow has consumed my life for the time being, I'm trying not to get sucked in too hardcore, but it is difficult. Lip piercing is healing well it seems, it is hard not to fuck with it or touch it. On the 22nd I'm driving up to monterey to Idaho for the holidays.