rivyr

So I'm single now. Pretty shitty really.

In case you didn't know my boyfriend deployed 2 months ago, we'd been dating for 9 months as of yesterday. And basically I'm not happy about the breakup.

Why did we break up you might ask? Lots of reasons really, issues that have been building up for a while (we've had an open relationship for the past month now cause I just couldn't deal with it anymore) but the deal breaker was that I hate his family and childhood friends. They're a bunch of white trash. (Really they are, I've never been so thankful for my own family, they're so normal and great. lol) And it just reached its breaking point today, over Myspace no less. Now I understand people who say they deleted their Myspaces cause of the drama.

So 9 months of my life down the tube, the person I was planning on marrying is out of my life (I'm not the type who can be friends after a breakup, it's just too hard), and basically I just feel like I wasted my time. But lesson learned: No matter how great someone is it won't work out if their friends and family suck! Next time I start dating a guy I'm going to interview the 10 closest people in his life first. Or better yet, next time I'm dating a girl, at least then I won't freak out every month that my period is late (which is is right now so wish me luck that it's just stress like it was last month when it was late ).

On an even more depressing note after all this drama I'm considering going to a therapist, I've actually been wanting to for years but ironically the stigma has kept me from going (it's ironic because I want to become a counselor myself). But I seriously think I'm bipolar or something... or else I'm just generally crazy. It would explain why I can't seem to keep a healthy relationship. Bah life is lame sometimes.