I've never really felt like how other people expect me too.. I'm not a 'pretty girl' and I hated myself when I was younger. I tried to overdose a few times but stopped myself. I realised I would never do that to my family but still felt unhappy, so instead I stopped eating. I controlled that for a while and when I got to uni I let go and was really. Then shit hit the fan and I spiralled back into not eating. And once again I'm back to hating my body (I'm not starving myself though). But yeah I still hate the way I look.
I found suicide girls years ago through @stigmata(who I love too much) and have always loved the idea of the site. But I can't beileve the love I have for all the girls on this site. Especially @yugen @damsel @jennings and @neptune who are basically my idols. I can't believe how much I wanted to be part of this site till after my month subscription ran out. I never missed a community so much. I feel at home here.
My hair, piercings, tattoos and music doesn't matter here. People are so nice. Everyone is so nice to everyone ad I fucking love it. I never want to leave this site. I'm so happy that @missy started up this site and honestly if I could ever meet her I think I would die. Actually I think if I got to meet any of these beautiful ladies I would have a panic attack.
Anyways thank you so much to all the insanely beautiful and confident ladies on this site who show me everyday it's ok to be the outcast. I love you all and everyday you help me love myself a little bit more.
