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So I was checking out my profile the other day and I realized that I have been a member of SG for a year this month. Isn't that something? Overall it's been an interesting year. That's all I have to say about that.

The other day was quite odd. I went to sleep and had a dream about one my friends. It was very intense and very graphic and very detailed. I woke myself up and remembered everything. I was very upset by it. I called my friend to my relief she was okay. She noticed that I was upset and assured me that everything was okay with her. I really needed that.

So a few hours later (same day), I went back to sleep. This time I'm not sure what the fuck I happened. It wasn't really a dream. I have no clue how to describe it. Long story short. I heard my ex girlfriend screaming and crying. I could only assume it was for help. I really wanted to call and make sure that everything was okay with her, but I didn't. She made it very clear that our last conversation was exactly that, our last conversation. I really wish I had called though. I ended up calling one of her friends and without being specific told me that while there's a part of her life that's recently fucked up, she personally is okay. I guess it made me feel a little better. I'm still worried about her though.

Then that chick (my ex's friend) said something that really pissed me-the-fuck-off. It was something to the effect, "those of us who care about her are taking care of her." WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN???

[The following is really directed towards her, incase she still actually reads my profile. And to stress the importance of this message I will use my Government name!]

I, Kimani Kendrick Feaster, do now and have always loved and cared about TMC. From the first day I met her when we pledging all the way through to this very day. Whether or not she chooses to acknowledge my existence is completely up to her. Neither you nor anyone else on this earth or any other has the right to question my feelings for her. You have some fuckin' nerve to even think about letting something like that come out of your mouth. Something that asinine has no business in your fucking thought process. AHHHHH!!!! (There was a lot more to say here, but I'm so angry I can't even think straight.)

You're very lucky that I am neither vengeful nor spiteful. Im not saying that to infer that Im holding something over you. Im not that kind of person. I just really want you to know how upset that made me and that you of all people have no business questioning my feelings toward her.

( End of angry ranting!)

Anyway, that really went in a completely different direction than planned. Im going to bed and I promise that my next entry wont be a mad rant! Look people, Im a Scorpio. Were youre best friends, just dont piss us off!!!

Night People!!