this week, i found out someone i've known for several years died. we even worked together last year at the summer camp we originally met at. i didn't like her until i got to know her when we were working together. it was only a week but i'm so thankful for that chance. she was actually really nice if a little crazy on the outside and she helped me out of a few scrapes at camp. she was so nice to me and i felt like a jerk for disliking her for so long. all water under the bridge now, i guess.

i was really sad when i found out because she was only 22 and had a baby and a husband and i just kept hearing her talk about her life plans. i didn't know her very well, i guess, but i still thought well of her.

the point of this is just to say that i feel like i need to change the way i live my life, if only by a bit. i need to be a better person. i need to be there for my friends as much as humanly possible, and for my family as well. i need to be true to myself and not waste time debating and procrastinating. i need to step it up a notch because what i'm doing now just isn't good enough.

have any of you had moments like this? what caused them, and what came of them?