a 16 year old boy i know has terminal brain cancer.
today i had to work really hard to find the beauty in life--the sun slanting through the trees, someone who had beautiful eyes--because it felt like nothing i did mattered, since i have not had a death sentance handed to me.
for as many times as people will tell me they're sorry to hear...
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today i had to work really hard to find the beauty in life--the sun slanting through the trees, someone who had beautiful eyes--because it felt like nothing i did mattered, since i have not had a death sentance handed to me.
for as many times as people will tell me they're sorry to hear...
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sometimes i have these really intense idealistic daydreams, especially when i am walking home from work and i look up at the stars. suddenly my mind is wandering. i think of when i was counseling at summer camp this past summer and while i was outside at night i looked up through the pines and saw the stars so bright, and across the lake were...
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oryx:
i think that's why i am so looking forward to taking my lunch date boy out west when we grad, there's something so wonderful about showing someone you care about how you interprete beauty.
tygertyger:
They're playing at Red's in your town. Red's is awesome, but you should still come down here for the show anyway. 
i feel rested and happy this morning. it is sunny and i wish i could wear capri pants and tshirts.
but alas it is still winter. today feels like it has the potential to be a good day.
also: it feels super glam to me--when i have no makeup on and just a plain tshirt but i am wearing this lush nice lip gloss.
only...
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but alas it is still winter. today feels like it has the potential to be a good day.
also: it feels super glam to me--when i have no makeup on and just a plain tshirt but i am wearing this lush nice lip gloss.
only...
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oryx:
lebanese ster-... what? i think i missed something.
moniker42:
Women with no makeup are hot.
i realized:
i am really, really, really not a morning person.
especially not when i wake up and want to rock the world with some donkey kong country 3 and my roommate's boyfriend has been playing crimson skies for hours. that's all he does when he is over here.
after sex the other day he asked her if he'd cuddled her enough and he could...
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i am really, really, really not a morning person.
especially not when i wake up and want to rock the world with some donkey kong country 3 and my roommate's boyfriend has been playing crimson skies for hours. that's all he does when he is over here.
after sex the other day he asked her if he'd cuddled her enough and he could...
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tygertyger:
Heh. I try.
Nice entry under Current Crush, BTW - ha!
Nice entry under Current Crush, BTW - ha!
shojo:
"OH WAIT! I REMEMBERED!* i pay rent here and he has lost out on that opportunity."
Oh crap! That gave me flashbacks...
Suddenly I'm 17 again and my father is forbidding me to paint the words "I love wang" on the fax machine downstars! Bastard...
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Oh crap! That gave me flashbacks...
Suddenly I'm 17 again and my father is forbidding me to paint the words "I love wang" on the fax machine downstars! Bastard...
[Edited on Feb 08, 2004 10:39PM]
i had a really crazy bad dream about my mom dying. i woke up at 810 and knew i couldn't get back to sleep. i phoned my mom and had an amazing hour-long discussion with her. she made me feel so much better. maybe i will have a nap later on in the day. it just feels nice to be up now.
tomorrow the boy...
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tomorrow the boy...
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atrasties:
Hey I hear you like the riff randells; tomorrow night at the shark tank; them and the homewrekers, a really kick ass band outa edmonchuck. Go see them if you can.
edited for too many drinks = bad spelling
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edited for too many drinks = bad spelling
[Edited on Feb 08, 2004 2:03AM]
atrasties:
So why not just go and have some fun?
arg.
it is almost 2 am. i feel heinously sick. rose and i trudged out in the chilliness to meet up with courtney, to go watch improv. only the improv was sold out and we couldn't find cordy so we left a message with the people she ate supper with (we saw them and know them from highschool.)
we then went to a timothy's and...
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it is almost 2 am. i feel heinously sick. rose and i trudged out in the chilliness to meet up with courtney, to go watch improv. only the improv was sold out and we couldn't find cordy so we left a message with the people she ate supper with (we saw them and know them from highschool.)
we then went to a timothy's and...
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tygertyger:
U of C? Whoa.
tygertyger:
Nice. I have a story or two about that sort of thing, if you're interested.
i am listening to the only recording that exists of a castrato--it's beautiful. almost otherworldly, cause it sounds feminine and masculine at the same time.
apparently one of my highschool friends who hasn't been talking to me for the past 2 months decided that we should be friends again. tonight we're going to improv theatre. that should be interesting to say the least.
i guess...
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apparently one of my highschool friends who hasn't been talking to me for the past 2 months decided that we should be friends again. tonight we're going to improv theatre. that should be interesting to say the least.
i guess...
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moniker42:
My dreams are never that together, they're always a lot more complex and fucked up as all hell.
That's a scary dreams though.
That's a scary dreams though.
moniker42:
read any of the other ones?
ha HA! i said something about a drunk entry and here it is. i danced by myself a lot to raveish music cause it reminded me of my boy. queen goth talked to me.
i also talked to this guy i used to be friends with, chris tsubone. i really missed him.
so drunk. not going to school tomorrow. arggggg
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i also talked to this guy i used to be friends with, chris tsubone. i really missed him.
so drunk. not going to school tomorrow. arggggg
addendum: i dont really like...
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nursesugar:
Too happy to be emo. That sounds like a cd name. Like that HORRIBLE house techno cd that came out in the 90's "Happy to be Hardcore" More like CRAPPY to be hardcore! I guess I'm too happy too. Mebbe it's my insatiable love of Hello Kitty that excludes me from the emo population.
nursesugar:
Yay hello kitty! I call her hello fathead. She's got a big fat head. I am a nurse in interventional cardiology at the hospital I work at... my scrub jacket has hello kitty all over it... I stopped at the bank on the way to work once in uniform and the teller is like "Oh, do you work with children?" I'm like "No, adults, cardiology." LMAO
i have an anthropology midterm on tuesday. as long as i get about 60% i will be happy, seeing as how i joined the class 3 weeks late.
i am going to see an exhibit at the edmonton art gallery called godzilla vs skateboarders. i think i'm going on sunday.
i will probably be seeing my mom on saturday. she will se my labret piercing...
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i am going to see an exhibit at the edmonton art gallery called godzilla vs skateboarders. i think i'm going on sunday.
i will probably be seeing my mom on saturday. she will se my labret piercing...
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tygertyger:
I was raising my eyebrows in shock. Atrasties is all rough and scary.
And what makes you say you're too young to go to a liquor store? This is Alberta, after all - drinking age is 18 here, silly.
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And what makes you say you're too young to go to a liquor store? This is Alberta, after all - drinking age is 18 here, silly.
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tygertyger:
Ah.
Um.
Yeah.
Um.
Yeah.
today was one of those days that i am happy to be alive.
i got to talk to the boy this morning, even though it was only for 2 minutes. his voice was all sleepy and cute.
rose and i walked to school. my one class zoomed by then i saw my friend sean. i went downtown and bought my bus ticket to see the...
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i got to talk to the boy this morning, even though it was only for 2 minutes. his voice was all sleepy and cute.
rose and i walked to school. my one class zoomed by then i saw my friend sean. i went downtown and bought my bus ticket to see the...
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yvoarioch:
I started a new thread inspired by something you said in your current journal entry, called "Glad to Be Alive..." Check it out...
schoolgirl:
thank you for your comment on my thread. your input is greatly appreciated. 
today was pretty nice--i hung out with lovely jenanne and rose. jenanne is probably one of the sweetest people in the entire world. she finishes your sentences and it's sweet and lovely cause she is wonderful. then she left to study group and rose and i decided several key things. one of them being that we are throwing caution to the wind--we are in similar...
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leningrad:
80% emo. 20% ALL METAL ACTION!
ha HA!
i am officially the best person in the world.
not only did i finish my essay by 1115, rose and i took the most hilarious pictures. digital cameras rock. we did videos too--it's a shame i can't upload them here. one of the pictures is me in a dryer to prove my claim that i can 'comfortably fit in a dryer'; only the...
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i am officially the best person in the world.
not only did i finish my essay by 1115, rose and i took the most hilarious pictures. digital cameras rock. we did videos too--it's a shame i can't upload them here. one of the pictures is me in a dryer to prove my claim that i can 'comfortably fit in a dryer'; only the...
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moniker42:
meh, nothing to say, i'm a nut.
doll:
oh wow, you are so wonderful i just might *pop* thinking about it! and yes, my hubby does sadly live in boston while i am 4 hours away in new york. 
but the 14th will be a wonderful day for me too because it is our one year anniversary!!! *giggle* valentine lovers we are. 
but the 14th will be a wonderful day for me too because it is our one year anniversary!!! *giggle* valentine lovers we are.
i've lost too many people and i still don't know what to say whenever i hear such aweful news. just feel blessed. we are all sooo blessed. even your friend.