riley

thank you for all the b-day wishes!!


i apologize if this entry is somewhat more sexual in nature than is usual for me.

exhibit a:
i had my first real spanking a few days ago. i love it. i love being a sub. that disturbs me on many, many levels - don't get me wrong - but i'm giving up trying to psychoanalyze myself... instead i fully admit i am a freak in the bed, and will continue to get off on it. mmmm.

exhibit b:
i just had a dream during my afternoon nap that involved a party among my friends and aquaintences, held at a posh home i'd never seen before. The idea was to show up and, if you were willing, be put on a bidding list. People circled the table bidding on people that they wanted to have sex with, both alone and in groups. The master bedroom became the site of the final pairings, which went through the list until everyone's fantasies has been realized. i remember feeling both vulnerable - would anyone bid on me? am i cute enough? - and relieved - wow, i can finally have sex with anyone i want, without even having to ask!

the saddest part is that i woke up before anything good happened. i do, however, remember whom i bid on

exhibit c:
i leave you with a question:
has anyone ever done it on a waterbed? how weird is that?