rilee

i think i'm going to be sick....
just when
i finally thought
i might be able to trust someone again...






dude i've been seeing...i already said he's older than me..36. but he dated a girl for 10 years.
ten years.
he always asks me if 'i'm over my ex'..
ha
today when i came to use the computer in his office at his house after he'd gone to work...i find a pile of pictures of him and his ex sitting out on top of a letter she had written him and a flower she had made him....
and there's one of them sitting right next to the computer.
it wasn't there a week ago because i cleaned this place.
oh man.
really?
really??????


i feel sick. i feel fucking sick to my stomach.
i can't do this anymore. this pretending idon't care and that i'm not starting to really fall for this dude.
when ....all along he's probably just wishing I was someone else.

someone tell me when my hearts going to stop breaking please......just make it stop.