Choose life,
choose a job,
choose a career,
choose a family,
choose a big television,
choose washing-machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers, choose leisure wear and matching luggage,
choose a three piece suit on higher purchase and a range of fabrics,
choose DIY and wonder who you are on a Sunday morning, sitting on that couch watching mind numbing, spirit crushing, game shows, stuffing junk food into your mouth,
choose rotting away at the end of it all in a miserable hole nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish brats that you sponsor in place of yourselves,
choose your future,
choose life
.i chose not to choose lifeI chose something else.
That whole thing about guys falling asleep after sex doesn't hold water 100% of the time...it's damn near 3am, i'm still awake and tomorrow's going to be a loooooong day!
i've got class from 9a - 8p then i've got to sprint to the metro so i can catch social d. at the pagent!!
who knows after that...but i'm going to be hashed by the end.
I don't know why the lyrics are posted above...i've been sitting on them for what seems like forever and i guess my seasonal affective disorder-ish mood is having me think of how each choice i've made effects the next and so on...not to get overly deep and trite but i've been doing things differently over the last few years...fuck, i've lived in only ONE! city for over three years!! unprecedented!! i went from sleeping in 100 different bed in 75 cities in 15 countries on 4 continents to...well....bloody st. louis, missouri. huh. (scratches head, shrugs)...go figure?!
no thoughts of choosing any of the aforementioned choices laid down by underworld and ewan mcgregor...nor would i take back anything i've ever done...(if it was good, great!...if it wasn't, learn from it!...)...but complacency isn't the answer either...what i need is to get the "snow" shaking in the proverbial globe...make things interesting!!
yes, i do believe the gypsy blood is stirring again...the experiences, the road, the smells, adventure, mountains...i need to hole up in my old cabin in alaska maybe...walk into the mountains for a couple of weeks with the dog and no cell-phone...i definitely need to start shooting again...pictures that is...have GOT to get the camera to the shop!! mental note....maybe i'll move to ibiza...sit on the sand during the day...listen to music and dance all night...sell cheap t-shirts to tourists or something...maybe in a bizarre twist, Skin the former lead singer from skunk anansie will become mesmerized by the beautiful waters of the mediterranean, slip in and i'll save her life...after which she'll retain me as her personal nurse and i'll once again be free to travel!! (*note: Skin if you're reading this...i wish you no ill will...may nothing ever harm that voice!)
i digress....
i know what started the waxing thoughts of today...it was beautiful outside...72 degrees...sunny...i walked out to the park and stood under a copse of HUGE trees and just listened to the wind play music across the branches...for a few minutes i felt free again...free from the constraints of life and work and the girl and school, money, EVERYthing...i simply stood there and listened and felt myself float with each buffet of wind that came along...sigh....
all right then...off to stare at the backs of my eyelids....
choose a job,
choose a career,
choose a family,
choose a big television,
choose washing-machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers, choose leisure wear and matching luggage,
choose a three piece suit on higher purchase and a range of fabrics,
choose DIY and wonder who you are on a Sunday morning, sitting on that couch watching mind numbing, spirit crushing, game shows, stuffing junk food into your mouth,
choose rotting away at the end of it all in a miserable hole nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish brats that you sponsor in place of yourselves,
choose your future,
choose life
.i chose not to choose lifeI chose something else.
That whole thing about guys falling asleep after sex doesn't hold water 100% of the time...it's damn near 3am, i'm still awake and tomorrow's going to be a loooooong day!
i've got class from 9a - 8p then i've got to sprint to the metro so i can catch social d. at the pagent!!
who knows after that...but i'm going to be hashed by the end.
I don't know why the lyrics are posted above...i've been sitting on them for what seems like forever and i guess my seasonal affective disorder-ish mood is having me think of how each choice i've made effects the next and so on...not to get overly deep and trite but i've been doing things differently over the last few years...fuck, i've lived in only ONE! city for over three years!! unprecedented!! i went from sleeping in 100 different bed in 75 cities in 15 countries on 4 continents to...well....bloody st. louis, missouri. huh. (scratches head, shrugs)...go figure?!
no thoughts of choosing any of the aforementioned choices laid down by underworld and ewan mcgregor...nor would i take back anything i've ever done...(if it was good, great!...if it wasn't, learn from it!...)...but complacency isn't the answer either...what i need is to get the "snow" shaking in the proverbial globe...make things interesting!!
yes, i do believe the gypsy blood is stirring again...the experiences, the road, the smells, adventure, mountains...i need to hole up in my old cabin in alaska maybe...walk into the mountains for a couple of weeks with the dog and no cell-phone...i definitely need to start shooting again...pictures that is...have GOT to get the camera to the shop!! mental note....maybe i'll move to ibiza...sit on the sand during the day...listen to music and dance all night...sell cheap t-shirts to tourists or something...maybe in a bizarre twist, Skin the former lead singer from skunk anansie will become mesmerized by the beautiful waters of the mediterranean, slip in and i'll save her life...after which she'll retain me as her personal nurse and i'll once again be free to travel!! (*note: Skin if you're reading this...i wish you no ill will...may nothing ever harm that voice!)
i digress....
i know what started the waxing thoughts of today...it was beautiful outside...72 degrees...sunny...i walked out to the park and stood under a copse of HUGE trees and just listened to the wind play music across the branches...for a few minutes i felt free again...free from the constraints of life and work and the girl and school, money, EVERYthing...i simply stood there and listened and felt myself float with each buffet of wind that came along...sigh....
all right then...off to stare at the backs of my eyelids....
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WHat are you studying? What took you on such fantastical journeys, other than a well honed spirit of adventure? Why would a girl make you feel constrained?
i am not sure what hair i am getting but i have booked a haircut for friday, so we will see what comes out of it.
and my valentine's day was actually quite good. how was yours?
it's nice here today and i want to go play tennis as always but have no one to play with as always because my boyfriend is at work and i have no friends.