rigadoon

I am incredibly overwhelmed right now... I've kind of bullshitted this entire semester of school and now that I have a month left, I'm wading through a pile of incomplete assignments and missed oppertunities. I had this plan to go to Amsterdam my Junior year (my school does an exchange program), but now that I've been so goddamn irresponsible, my chances of actually going are looking slim to none. I just keep thinking that if I could get there, I could clear my head and get shit all sorted out because as of now, my brain is just... somewhere else. Plus, it was my Plan B, you know? Like, my way out of the shit I've stirred up this past year: my way to escape my inevitible, excruciating heartbreak, disappointing my parents and straight-up dropping out of school to live in a box somewhere. I need a fucking break... or at least some motivation to pull myself together. And I'm sorry to continue the bitchfest, but I'm really lonely. I think I have issues...