I can't say that I'm not happy and that I don't think about her constantly, but there are times when I wonder if it's worth it. I'm digging myself a hole that seems impossible to climb out of. I know I'm going to get hurt or end up hurting someone else. I don't know if I'm ready to be "the bad guy," but I really don't think I'm ready to be the lonely one, either. I know that we could be happy, that we could last, that we could be that thing I've been looking for, but could doesn't always translate to "will" or "are" or "should," even.
I think it's the not having her that's killing me. I think it's the possibility of having, the promise of having, the actual having and then letting her go, losing her for days at a time.
Is it better to have and lose, or to never have at all?
I think it's the not having her that's killing me. I think it's the possibility of having, the promise of having, the actual having and then letting her go, losing her for days at a time.
Is it better to have and lose, or to never have at all?

piski:
Say the word and I'm a happy exile. I wouldn't want you to miss out on an opporatunity for a little exercise, after all.

datsun:
welcome to the Girls Only group. please read the sticky threads at the top of the list, and have fun! 
