rickmitten

i want to build a ship and sail away..

I have four days of work then i am off on a ten day jaunt up the coast for waves and relaxation..
I cant wait to see all my friends in Queensland..

Work has been tiresome and taxing..
A lot of work,
Nothing terribly exciting..
New computer by the time i get back from holidays though..

I have been out with a few girls recently..
It's been a long time since the break up..
I thought I was ready..
All are lovely..
None really match though..

It has kind of made me sadder..
I thought I was over her..
Not yet it seems..

I get down and feel lonely..
Even when I know that my life is filled with extremely loving, awesomely radical people..
I drift away and isolate myself inside my own head..
I know that even people that 'get' me never really 'get' me..

I hate feeling alone..
I still think about her every day..
I miss holding hands..

I walk down the beach with Styles sometimes..
Here are some images to look at..

this is my beard..

I know life is rad..
Right now it just doesn't seem that way in my head..

I have a few songs to put up soon i think..
I wish I could write lyrics..
Nothing ever makes sense..

Hello