my weekend was....well i dont really know how it was. what i wanted to do didnt happen but what i did instead was tons of fun...so i guess it was atleast the best of a bad situation.
here we go again....
so i went down to LA to see a girl...if youre a regular reader ive talked about her before...if youre not then i dont care cuz i hate you anyways.
so yeah i go down to see this girl...and she blew me off the whole weekend. everyone i know says its because shes scared about what happened last weekend, cuz she doesnt want to get to involved...i live to far away...blah blah blah....yadda yadda yadda. i asked her if something was wrong and seh assured me nothing was, she was just busy. and i can understand that completely...but she only called me once the whole time, and given our relatonship of talkin on the phone for a while each day for the past year and a half, thats just weird to me. oh fuck,i dont know how to explain it, its confusing allright. 
which brings us to our next point...
i am a very very very passionate person. if im into something, im into it really fuckin deep. and this is good to me, i like it...but once you get me started on one of these things ill go on for hours. i love having conversations, i love being challenged...like when people ask me what im all about. but sometimes i feel like i just keep fuckin talkin...when they lost interest and now there just being nice. i dont know, i feel like im having trouble expressing myself lately, i cant even describe this feeling to you accurately. basically i am starting to walk away from social situations thinking "wow Jared you really fucked that up" and its turning into some wierd fuckin social anxiety thing. so tell me how much you all love me so i can feel better . no, but seriously, its worrying me alot. im starting to think im not gonna get over it, cuz its been pretty steadily downhill lately. this is a really weird time in my life with all the stuff thats goin on.
i saw the US womens soccer team play Canada in the world cup. it was a great game...we won 3-1. my favorite part was after the game tho...when the US did there victory lap around the stadium walking and waving to the crowd. now anyone who knows about soccer knows Mia Hamm. and anyone who knows about Mia Hamm knows what shes done for the sport...shes the all time leading scorer for the US mens and womens teams, the biggest building Nike owns is named after her (yeah bigger than Micheal Jordans building), and she has inspired literally millions of people to start playing soccer.and you also know that this was her last World Cup appearance ever.
anyways so when they started walking around they all stopped without Mia really knowing so Mia was a good thirty feet ahead of them...when she realized she stopped and looked back and waved for them to catch up with her (if youve followed her you know she hates the spotlight...shes unbelievably humble) but they waved back to her telling her to keep walking, forcing her into the spotlight that she deserved. so she kept walking and waving and blowing kisses to the fans. that was touching and all but her impact on people never hit me until she got to our side of the stadium. i was standing and cheering for her like i had been for the past ten minutes, but when she got close to us the little girl next to me flipped. this girl was maybe six, with a Mia Hamm jersey on, jumping up and down, screaming Mias name as loud as she possibly could, and she was in tears. and when i looked around at all the other little girls that were by me they were doing pretty much the exact same thing. and then when i looked down at Mia as she got closer, she was crying right along with them, blowing kisses with her right hand and motioning to her heart with her left. it gave me chills and it warmed the soul pretty good.
damn that was long...i dont blame you if you dont wanna read it, i wouldnt...i dont really care what any of you people have to say.
here we go again....
so i went down to LA to see a girl...if youre a regular reader ive talked about her before...if youre not then i dont care cuz i hate you anyways.
so yeah i go down to see this girl...and she blew me off the whole weekend. everyone i know says its because shes scared about what happened last weekend, cuz she doesnt want to get to involved...i live to far away...blah blah blah....yadda yadda yadda. i asked her if something was wrong and seh assured me nothing was, she was just busy. and i can understand that completely...but she only called me once the whole time, and given our relatonship of talkin on the phone for a while each day for the past year and a half, thats just weird to me. oh fuck,i dont know how to explain it, its confusing allright.
which brings us to our next point...
i am a very very very passionate person. if im into something, im into it really fuckin deep. and this is good to me, i like it...but once you get me started on one of these things ill go on for hours. i love having conversations, i love being challenged...like when people ask me what im all about. but sometimes i feel like i just keep fuckin talkin...when they lost interest and now there just being nice. i dont know, i feel like im having trouble expressing myself lately, i cant even describe this feeling to you accurately. basically i am starting to walk away from social situations thinking "wow Jared you really fucked that up" and its turning into some wierd fuckin social anxiety thing. so tell me how much you all love me so i can feel better
. no, but seriously, its worrying me alot. im starting to think im not gonna get over it, cuz its been pretty steadily downhill lately. this is a really weird time in my life with all the stuff thats goin on.
i saw the US womens soccer team play Canada in the world cup. it was a great game...we won 3-1. my favorite part was after the game tho...when the US did there victory lap around the stadium walking and waving to the crowd. now anyone who knows about soccer knows Mia Hamm. and anyone who knows about Mia Hamm knows what shes done for the sport...shes the all time leading scorer for the US mens and womens teams, the biggest building Nike owns is named after her (yeah bigger than Micheal Jordans building), and she has inspired literally millions of people to start playing soccer.and you also know that this was her last World Cup appearance ever.
anyways so when they started walking around they all stopped without Mia really knowing so Mia was a good thirty feet ahead of them...when she realized she stopped and looked back and waved for them to catch up with her (if youve followed her you know she hates the spotlight...shes unbelievably humble) but they waved back to her telling her to keep walking, forcing her into the spotlight that she deserved. so she kept walking and waving and blowing kisses to the fans. that was touching and all but her impact on people never hit me until she got to our side of the stadium. i was standing and cheering for her like i had been for the past ten minutes, but when she got close to us the little girl next to me flipped. this girl was maybe six, with a Mia Hamm jersey on, jumping up and down, screaming Mias name as loud as she possibly could, and she was in tears. and when i looked around at all the other little girls that were by me they were doing pretty much the exact same thing. and then when i looked down at Mia as she got closer, she was crying right along with them, blowing kisses with her right hand and motioning to her heart with her left. it gave me chills and it warmed the soul pretty good.
damn that was long...i dont blame you if you dont wanna read it, i wouldnt...i dont really care what any of you people have to say.
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