I need to find more positive people. I've just had my ex on msn telling me he's trying to kill himself.
I've given up trying to help him. I really have. He won't listen, he's so selfish sometimes. So I'm leaving him to it. As harsh as it sounds. I've come so far on my own and I am much happier, I don't need him dragging me backwards. I know there is something in life for everyone. Don't ever give up. No matter what.
In other news, I finally dragged myself to the doctors yesterday. I'm on anti biotics and have to do some tests, and if nothing comes out of it, I may have to have some scans on my tummy area.
Long story short. I had a miscarriage a year ago. I've never been right since.
But I'm positive I can get better.
All I am focussing on this year, is saving money for London, getting into Uni, overcoming my fears and not forgetting the little things in between.
A friend of mine died this year of an un diagnosed heart condition. His brother died of the same thing. He was found dead in his halls at University at the age of 25. All he wanted was to persue his dream. He was so talented but his life was too short. I've never forgotton him. We joked about him being my Grandad. I wasn't the youngest on our course, but I was always the smallest!
I was thinking about him today, and it made me want to achieve my dreams or atleast die trying.
God bless you Nick.
I just want to say to anyone who feels low, and suffers from depression or anything else of the sort. Please don't give up. There will be something for you.
And on that bombshell.
I have a mountain of clothes to sort out, so I bid you farewell!
I've given up trying to help him. I really have. He won't listen, he's so selfish sometimes. So I'm leaving him to it. As harsh as it sounds. I've come so far on my own and I am much happier, I don't need him dragging me backwards. I know there is something in life for everyone. Don't ever give up. No matter what.
In other news, I finally dragged myself to the doctors yesterday. I'm on anti biotics and have to do some tests, and if nothing comes out of it, I may have to have some scans on my tummy area.
Long story short. I had a miscarriage a year ago. I've never been right since.
But I'm positive I can get better.
All I am focussing on this year, is saving money for London, getting into Uni, overcoming my fears and not forgetting the little things in between.
A friend of mine died this year of an un diagnosed heart condition. His brother died of the same thing. He was found dead in his halls at University at the age of 25. All he wanted was to persue his dream. He was so talented but his life was too short. I've never forgotton him. We joked about him being my Grandad. I wasn't the youngest on our course, but I was always the smallest!
I was thinking about him today, and it made me want to achieve my dreams or atleast die trying.
God bless you Nick.
I just want to say to anyone who feels low, and suffers from depression or anything else of the sort. Please don't give up. There will be something for you.
And on that bombshell.
I have a mountain of clothes to sort out, so I bid you farewell!
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A friend of mine from uni committed suicide over the summer which came as huge shock no one thought he was having those sort of feelings not even his fiancee. But i can not compare my loss to yours as my friend choose to end his life so you feel more sad for his family and young children.
Hope everything goes well at the doctors and i think you have made the right choice regarding your Ex.