rhia

Bad night last night. Ended up resorting to some old bad habits I promised myself I'd never turn to again...

It feels like relief and self-betrayal wrapped into one.

He wonders why I don't open up to him or talk to him about this stuff too? Well this is fucking why. He just turns it all about him and into his only little pity fest. He gives me no support or help, no comfort and no consideration. He gets pissed at me and acts like it's all my fault and that I wronged him just because I'm upset and made the mistake of telling him how I feel and why when he asked.

I can feel a part of myself die inside with every day that passes...