hi. 
i took a whole week and a half off from work to relax and spend quality time with family because i have not done so in years. its so nice to be home in my big room with my cats. surrounded by trees and true night silence. though, i am starting to miss pittsburgh now. i didn't really make plans for my return so i suppose i'll figure a way to scamper back north in the next couple of days.
i don't tend to make new years resolutions and i'm not making one now, either, but i do want to use it as a good turning point for how things have been going in life. i realize (or have realized with the help from others) that i have a tendency to sell myself short whether it be some sort of subconscious lack of confidence in my conquests, desired and actual, or complacency or a sort of unrealized laziness...
i won't bore you with any details at all because honestly, i don't know the details myself.
but, anyway.
the first thing i was greeted with upon my return home was probably the most epic gift of all:
A BLACK CHRISTMAS TREE.
the black christmas tree itself was enough to nearly bring a tear to my eye
but the hand-selected and placed skull ornaments were the real kicker.
i'm lucky to have parents that accept and embrace my unconventional life choices and morbid tastes
other treasures!
i have been reading sexual personae by camille paglia
i'm really digging it so far, first work i have read of hers
i've been laying pretty low as of late
HERMIT. AS. FUCK.
but i have had some very late nights with great people that were very amazing as well
but more so, nights like this:
a cold beer and a fresh crossword puzzle. mmmm.
neurosis is playing a handful of shows on the east goddamn coast and maryland deathfest is officially selling more tickets for the thursday show with fucking bolt thrower and ufomammut. THANK YOU AND THANK YOU. i feel another great year for metalheads coming on. \m/
wish i could have been in pittsburgh for this::
i'll see ya soon babies.
have a fun and safe new years.
remember what life is all about:
banging. bacon. bourbon. books. barbecue. and being badass mother-fuckers.
bye!
<3 Rexx
i took a whole week and a half off from work to relax and spend quality time with family because i have not done so in years. its so nice to be home in my big room with my cats. surrounded by trees and true night silence. though, i am starting to miss pittsburgh now. i didn't really make plans for my return so i suppose i'll figure a way to scamper back north in the next couple of days.
i don't tend to make new years resolutions and i'm not making one now, either, but i do want to use it as a good turning point for how things have been going in life. i realize (or have realized with the help from others) that i have a tendency to sell myself short whether it be some sort of subconscious lack of confidence in my conquests, desired and actual, or complacency or a sort of unrealized laziness...
i won't bore you with any details at all because honestly, i don't know the details myself.
but, anyway.
the first thing i was greeted with upon my return home was probably the most epic gift of all:
A BLACK CHRISTMAS TREE.
the black christmas tree itself was enough to nearly bring a tear to my eye
but the hand-selected and placed skull ornaments were the real kicker.
i'm lucky to have parents that accept and embrace my unconventional life choices and morbid tastes
other treasures!
i have been reading sexual personae by camille paglia
i'm really digging it so far, first work i have read of hers
i've been laying pretty low as of late
HERMIT. AS. FUCK.
but i have had some very late nights with great people that were very amazing as well
but more so, nights like this:
a cold beer and a fresh crossword puzzle. mmmm.
neurosis is playing a handful of shows on the east goddamn coast and maryland deathfest is officially selling more tickets for the thursday show with fucking bolt thrower and ufomammut. THANK YOU AND THANK YOU. i feel another great year for metalheads coming on. \m/
wish i could have been in pittsburgh for this::
i'll see ya soon babies.
have a fun and safe new years.
remember what life is all about:
banging. bacon. bourbon. books. barbecue. and being badass mother-fuckers.
bye!
<3 Rexx
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Vamps and Tramps is a collection of essays, it is unregular. There are good essays and weak ones too. As well is unregular Sex, Art, and American Culture: Essays.
Life is not so good with me trying to still find the correct path to my projects. I wrote this:
Sketch for a possible manifesto
One of the things that has always motivated me to like the porn made in the 70s, is the fact that since they were already damned for using explicit sex in the narrative, it allowed them a freedom to approach the topics proposed. A great boldness that sometimes meant that films were made without any concessions to the canons of the genre or the wishes of the public. That's what I think, when I imagine what I wanna do with scripts and try to develop ideas. Why do not make a political porn dealing with issues of gender, and religious policies regarding sexuality? In my opinion, a good work of art is cathartic. And a porn can be. Cause weeping, laughter and extreme excitement. As a sexual act in bdsm lifestyle. BDSM moreover, that still needs to be better played pornographically. Fetishes need to be worked narrative, dramatic and visually in a way we would say "larger than life". I am fascinated with the myth of the Beauty and the Beast, the Polish director Walerian Borowczyk once explored the myth in an almost explicit way in a movie called La Bete (The Beast), it was beautiful, exciting, a grim fairy tale for adults. Always I think about this movie, and also in Crash by Canadian David Cronenberg, as possible visual and atmospheric influences. I want to make porn that reflect my artistic, my philosophical and my sexual nature. Even if that shock some people.