rexx

with a constant access to a meter of time
we do not realize time
how wonderfully unique and how innumerable
are the changes in each moment
the outing of a light
sway of a curtain
twitch of a dog's ear in a window up above
a wildly dancing branch
it's then seemingly complete stillness
(and how i wish to be so wildly blown by wind and yet remain rooted
and yet i suppose that i am. my endless hair my branches)
i have not appreciated time fully until i am removed from its noticeability in measurement
tonight i did not watch minutes tick by
i watched moments occur
the tiniest nuance seemed not to escape my eye or cease to be admired
i realize my self and my place in these moments
shift the body to feel new moments
seek the other changes that occur just as this created moment occurs
almost feeling the turn of the earth
vibrations of ending and beginning
what is over, gone, will never again occur just as it were
i realize without this awareness of time as we have managed to disperse it
that i am no longer waiting
i am noticing new details in this place i nightly stand
i feel as though life is more susceptible now to spontaneous interactions
i feel more open to actions that occur around me
encounters that may happen
i feel neither patient nor impatient
these concepts no longer exist
if time were not specifically measured in hours and minutes
if hours and minutes were not specifically assigned to certain activities
could the universe function?
or i suppose the question is
could humanity function? and if the inevitable is relentless disorder would it be of a superb sort?
or would this create disfunction in the entire universe?

well i suppose none of those questions really matters
though i did lose my phone on saturday and paying hardly a bit of attention to time throughout the days since then has been quite refreshing. and thus i rambled.



a strange coincidence that after i rambled these thoughts in my head the other night i stumbled across this today while reading:

"The tick tock of our watches is so mechanically jerky that we no longer have ears subtle enough to hear the passage of time."
-Bachelard

in other news..
after over two years without having a computer..
(drum roll, please.)
rexxy finally got herself a macbook.

and so perhaps we will be seeing a bit more of each other around these parts? hmm?






till next time my love oats..
<3 Rexx