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Monday May 23, 2011

May 23, 2011
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listening: centaur - in streams // nile - annihilation of the wicked
reading: john clare - selected poems
wearing: nothing
feeling: sexed. lazy. full of homemade pizza.

life since we last spoke has consisted of the following:

sunny mornings sipping orange juice and staring out the window before work.


working as many hours as i can snag, which still isn't so much.
but the weather is nice and i don't mind
the in between


much of the time i have spent at work has consisted of finally completing dostoevksy's the idiot (which was a fabulous book as always for him) and doodles inspired by pigeons pecking at scraps.


there have been many grand nights of incense and candles and this big bottle of whiskey.


i constructed a precious whiskey nest for ultimate balance while multi-tasking in bed.


last thursday i took megabus(es) to virginia for a few days to see my younger sister's dance recital, visit with family, relax away from the city life. my childhood room is still polar bears, cookie and coffee pillows, purple walls. inevitably it will change but i hope it never does. when i go home i always sip from my old favorite coffee mug. (which now makes me think of hunter s. thompson) and spend plenty of time with josie, my soul-cat. we like to stare out windows at birds and feel zen as we squint and stretch and curl into the sun.

(ruffles was always my favorite p.b. )






enjoyed a relaxing and wild car ride as always back to pittsburgh with my love. i sipped sierra nevadas most of the way. flying down a road with completely bare skin, music turned up loud, wind and cars zipping all around in the dark. electrifying. smile

the boy leaves soon to tour europe with his band gifts from enola for a few weeks
oh how i wish i could say i would meet you there,
but swing by if you dig, my european babies, and tell me all about it kiss

i have a free bus ticket to anywhere that expires in july.
i'm still deciding.
somewhere quiet. somewhere beautiful. somewhere without tourists. somewhere i can be undisturbed for days and bask in the glory of nature and solitude.

i'm not sure where life is taking me next,
but its taking me somewhere new.
my current situation leaves me feeling a slight dissatisfaction
slight
i enjoy the uncertainty
it means something new is on the horizon
the world is mine
and i just have to decide what i want next and go for it
a great deal of humanity exhausts me
with their concerns that aren't those of mine
(their constant desire for explanation,
their lack of a broad understanding,
the designer and mcdonalds bags they clutch)
i'd like to get out of the city
away from the crowds,
the business
the relentless construction
the big buildings blocking the sun


well, anyway..
just a bitty update.

i hope you are having the loveliest of days. smile

<3 Rexx




p.s. thank you, julie christmas. i bow at the feet of your exquisitely harrowing eloquence.

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

Streets are wrapped,
childlike faces smooth and blank.
firm young flesh,
hung with paper crowns.

pull me up from where we are,
the big keep getting bigger,
and their hearts keep getting harder,
an imaginary game,
eating at every living thing,
a wide mouth dripping with sarcasm,
a bloody fat slash grinning over,
bleached white-fang teeth,
that glow like green warning signs of sickness,
taking for your kind,
and running with your winnings,
they're just running with your winnings.

staring ahead and hearing,
voices saying useless things,
about how to be better,
about how to get bigger,
it's your knight on white horse,
turn it all around,
the world is just for you,
but you don't want to take it,
ah - you must be useless!
and you must be lazy,
have enough then,
with insipid grins,
that swallow hard and
bear. big. burden.

this place is getting tighter,
and all around the angels scream
and close the gates of heaven,
a division of the ages,
try to swallow wings of traitors,
robbed of being really human,
And the voice drip with sarcasm like
bloody fat slash grinning over
white-fanged teeth that glow like green
warning signs of sickness
and running with their winnings
they're just running with their winnings

Big are getting bigger and
Hearts are getting harder
An imaginary game,
eating at every living thing,
a voice dripping with sarcasm like,
a bloody fat slash grinning over,
bleached white-fang teeth,
that glow like green warnings
warning signs of sickness,

but little things add up
a barbed-wire fence of stiffened spines
broadcasts violent death through flashing blinds
look at their faces
Keep it all inside.
if not, we'll all go down together,
a coward's crawling death,
the paper king's big dinner.
look at their faces
and down into their eyes
and the vacant, glaring, certainty
of nothing, ever, anywhere

-made out of babies




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gaslight:
winkwinklovetongue
May 27, 2011
micamars:
Hey Rexxy, still gorgeous I see.
May 29, 2011

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