rexx

probation officer is back from vacation.

fuck.

...now i have to get my court date continued because it took me forever to find a lawyer for my broke ass.

which means MORE time that i have to watch my drinking.

FUCK.

fuck.

fuck.

fuck.




i want mexican food right now. almost more than sex. is that unhealthy?

p.s. once again i failed at meeting someone, giving it hope, and then becoming annoyed and bored after the initial novelty of the consistant bang and fun hang out wears off. i sometimes wonder if i'm capable of having any emotion. i hate always feeling like a huge bitch in the end. isn't it supposed to be the men who constantly end relationships because they don't want to take it to the "serious" level? mmm...oh well. one day someone will hold my attention.

normal heather would say "in the meantime, i'm going to have a drink!"

but.....now i'm probably just going to go chainsmoke and find someone to eat unlimited chips and salsa with.

i know i'm being incredibly redundant now but....

FUCK PROBATION.