rexall

there are moments when i really want someone to pinch me because i'm pretty sure the things happening in my life are a dream. so we all know i have no shame. so when a performer at my school's benefit show popped up on my okcupid feed, i messaged him. i thought nothing of it until he started to respond, then gave me his number, then last night i was sitting in brooklyn with him and my other friend. then i was in his apartment. and he was more beautiful in person than in the dirty photos he had sent. and for some fucking reason thinks i'm beautiful and wanted to touch me. and wants to touch me more. gotta say, he's probably the most gorgeous specimen of man i have ever let touch me. it's surreal. (ladies... you know the kind... the one that you "think" should be with the tall, skinny blonde with huge knockers... and yet he was holding my hand and telling me how beautiful i was) i don't think i will ever let it happen again - based on other things but wow. and to top it off he's sweet, caring and pretty fucking awesome. and so talented. he played piano and sang - amazing. mmmmmm sex. i still think it's a dream. i really do. and i smell like him and it's super nice. but it won't go anywhere. and i made it clear that it wouldn't either.

that is all. i just needed to get that out. ridiculous. think i'm gonna go throw up now.