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A 14 hour time difference is KILLER. What have I gotten myself into? I can sit here and list all the reasons why this is ridiculously stupid... the biggest being that he will be here for maybe 8 weeks at the end of the year, in which time i will most likely fall head over heels, cus i have no control in matters of the heart and then he will return to his home 10,000 miles away and that will be it. There's a part of me that says fuck it - you only live once and then there's that part that is really beating my head against a wall. Maybe if it goes swimmingly, I can somehow convince him to stay hahahahaha. My vagina should be enough to convince him right??? My lady parts are a lethal package... BAHAHAHA ****let me also say that for all these reasons, i have at least 2 for why i continue to do it. especially because i haven't smiled this much in a long time and he is a direct cause of that***

Anyways. The sun is shining, it is ridiculously warm out, my apartment is slowly getting organized, I have begun replacing just about everything River ever touched while being completely depressed about it and tonight I go to Bayside. I have a wall of tickets to shows coming up. It makes me happy. Next week I will buy tickets to Trio!!! They play the night before i leave for Japan! Thank something cus i totally thought i was going to miss them... and this i do not want to miss. Now to go preorder the new album and shower. Oh and get some coffee and get my toes did.

xoxoox