rexall

i am emotional.
i am loving.
i am the best friend you will ever have.
i get attached.
i am a bit crazy.
i am funny.
i have moments where i am beautiful.
i am reliable.
i am fiercely independent.
i am strong-willed.
i am opinionated.
i am honest. brutally honest.
i can hold my own.
i am a guy's girl.
i think like a guy.
i can figure you out before you figure me out.
i am a bullshit detector.
i will smile to get my way.
i will take care of you.
i will not be taken advantage of.
i will call you on your bullshit.
i will accept you for who you are.
i am jaded.
i am cynical.
i am broken.
i trust no one.
i am a hopeless romantic.
i do not have meaningless sex.
i do not need to have sex, so i would appreciate it if people would stop telling me that's what i need to do.
i am a cutter - a bit more recently than i would like. my leg is an ugly landscape right now.
i am clinically depressed - severely.
i have manic tendencies.
i don't think i'm good enough.
i want to be missed.
i was hurt repeatedly as a child.
i was abused by my stepfather up until the day i was kicked out of my mom's house at 17.
i have been abandoned by everyone important in my life.
i love to laugh.
i am sarcastic.
i am loyal.
i will not tell you things you want to hear - just so you can hear them.
i always speak my mind.
i stand up for what i believe in.
i cry every time i think about my uncle.
i want to be devoid of all emotion but i am not.
i am destroyed by the end of my relationship - still.
i am healing.
i am a warrior.
i still believe in love.
i want to be in love again one day.
i am a bitch - a major bitch some days.
i shut down and close myself off.
i am very picky about who i let into my life.
i deserve better and if you don't treat me the way i deserve you will be gone.
i will cut you out of my life without a look back.
i will no longer apologize for who i am.

this is me. and if you don't like it then i don't need you. plain and simple.

***this has been building in my brain for a few days, pushed out by a recent happening, but absolutely not for anyone in particular just in case you think it is***

however i would like to say that i certainly do miss someone right now and i hope we can work our shit out and be friends. cus good god do i miss that face.