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i'm having a good day so far today. i'm exhausted and sore still but it's a good day. i am following all the doc's recommendations for my case, in relation to the accident. i am being the model client for my lawyer. i am very nice to the adjusters at Progressive.

i talked out finances with my mom. i'm only a little bit concerned about money in the new year.

i am running away for christmas and from christmas.

i would like a really fantastic orgasm, cus the last 2 people i slept with fell far short in that department. and as much as i like to be a giver and take care of others... i need to be taken care of too. is it wrong to text message a guy and tell him he needs to live up to all the hype he talked and come fuck me silly? i understand his connection to river, but that doesn't concern me. what concerns me is his amazing body and what he's packing in his pants. cus good god.

i love my new car. LOVE IT.

i like this girl. had a movie date with her last night at her apt. i've got to behave cus she likes someone else and i already know my heart will hurt but we are friends so i will love her regardless when she chooses the real lesbian lol.

i need to learn to sleep. a lot.

i cleaned my apartment last night... most of it. my bedroom is totally reorganized. i found his letterman jacket in the back of the closet... hurt my heart. he wants it. i will not, cannot see him, so he will have to wait. he wants his xbox back too... that i want to break into thousands of pieces and then put back in the box and give it to him. i'm trying to work through that irrational desire.

and now i'm off.