rexall

I removed all of River's stuff from the apartment today and put it in the basement where he will eventually get it. Cus he is no longer welcome in my apartment. And maybe one day I will let him know all his shit is downstairs. Whatevs. When the time comes. I now officially live alone. For the first time in 28 years. I will eventually come to like this. I now have a large room to make of it what I want. I'll figure it out. Next weekend I may paint a little bit and then have it smudged by my friends. Gonna get rid of River's energy!

This morning was Cairey's funeral. I was a hot mess. But I had good friends with me to get through it. And her family. Her amazing family. Tomorrow I'm going to her apartment to pick up a couch and a bookcase. Gay Jesus wants one of mine so I will take Cairey's. I would also like to be able to curl up in the same place that she did. I am wicked sad.

I couldn't go to Anberlin tonight. I just didn't have the emotional capacity to handle Anberlin. I bought those tickets for River... and the risk of them playing our wedding song was too great. I just can't deal with that shit right now. I've been flirting with a boy at school... which makes me feel all wonderful and he seems to be having fun with it too. I enjoy flirting with no intention of going further. And of course tattooed... but that's a different story cus I kind of want that kid to plow me like I've never been plowed before. But he won't cus he's lame or something. I enjoy the convo's though... I'll just keep that going.

And now pictures... enjoy. New hair is in there.