An aneurysm burst in her brain. Within the next 6-24 hours all the tests will be run to declare her gone. I know she is no longer here. She is giving her dad time to sit with her and come to some sort of terms. She is an amazing light and my world has just become so much darker without her.
I was selfish this morning and did not want to go to the hospital. I didn't think I could handle it. I really can't handle it, but her family asked us to be there and so I will be there. She is more important than my bullshit. It has been almost 7 months since Uncle Wayne died... and now Cairey. She knew she was going to die on her 30th birthday. She's been having dreams for weeks and has been uneasy all week.
I love you so much Cairey. So much. I just can't stop crying. Thank you all for your love.
I was selfish this morning and did not want to go to the hospital. I didn't think I could handle it. I really can't handle it, but her family asked us to be there and so I will be there. She is more important than my bullshit. It has been almost 7 months since Uncle Wayne died... and now Cairey. She knew she was going to die on her 30th birthday. She's been having dreams for weeks and has been uneasy all week.
I love you so much Cairey. So much. I just can't stop crying. Thank you all for your love.
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apriloneil:
This is so rough. I can only say, I'm here if you need someone to talk to. Seriously. <3
flaker:
I'm sorry. I know that my words are probably just nothingness plastered over this cyberworld...but still, I'm sorry. Loss is never easy, ever. 