I can't help but think of times where I feel more in control. Being completely coherent of the things I do for attention. But it's never selfish. I like to share. There's something about making other people feel good that makes me feel.... sensational. I used to be the kind to give. To spoil everyone with everything that made me think of them. And over time I realize that not everyone thinks like me. So open, so willing, so accepting. That's when people take advantage.
I'm feeling defeated lately. I need someone else to take control for once. I want to close my eyes and feel things I've never felt before. I want someone to spoil me. I want things I shouldn't because I should already have them...
eyes52:
It's a shame that a person so caring and giving gets taken advantage of by people that are what I call pretend people. Hopefully you will find someone who can give you what you crave and bring back your happiness. Take care
robertbluesman:
Natural emotion, even more thrilling when genuine mutual trust is in play. Enjoy the ride!