rewski

I haven't been true to myself lately. Like I've been waiting for something to happen. And it's finally clicked that maybe it's just not meant to. Its just strange because I've never been the type to just.... wait. I'm a go getter and I typically get what I want. But for once this is something that even through me for a loop. To the point of actually scaring me. Like maybe I missed a step in life and I thought it was giving me an opportunity. I went too deep. Thought too hard. And got my feelings hurt. Today I just kept asking myself why. Why do I torture myself with something I have no control over? It's time to move on. I think I finally get it now. I can't keep wondering what if anymore.