so 2010 is coming to a close.
it has been one of the most exciting and best years i have had.
i started the year off in Brisbane living with Allure, we had the best time, we kept each other motivated and on the straight and narrow (ie... eating good food)... my confidence was at an all time high, i was happy and healthy and enjoying life... i was the lightest i had been in like 10+ years and was becoming happy within myself.
i moved back to the gold coast in July-ish and around this time everything happened.... i started seeing Miles, I got a new job, i stopped going to the gym, i stopped my anti-d's and i started eating badly again...which is no one's fault but my own. And even tho I should be happy, i feel meh, i have no energy and just feel blergh. I've put on 10kg since then which is upsetting cos i worked so hard to get to the point i was at. I guess i feel disappointed that i lost myself along the way and havent really devoted time to myself the last few months. I've started at the gym again but dont go as often as i should, but I am going to change that... just change my routine a bit and focus on myself first, others 2nd. I need to get my head right so I can be happy and enjoy things to the fullest.
I had a bit of a break financially wise, but will get back into paying stuff in January. Hermit time again... but hopefully that means i will focus on my health and fitness more. I need to get my eating right again.
Christmas was different this year... I spent the day with Miles' family... completely different from how my family spends it... not sure if i like it...
I scored well in the presents department (friends wise) i got a laptop cooler thing, a cool panda necklace/earring set, plus heaps more but my brain isnt working.
I was a little disappointed with my presents from miles and his family.... i really didnt want anything from his parents and i didnt want to get anything for them. but i had to, so i spent a fair bit on them cos i was told they expected certain things, didnt like vouchers etc.... so i bought nice things, and in return i got a bag (i love the bag i already have and i was annoyed miles told them to get me a bag), candles and shit (i hate candles), franjipanni earrings (i HATE franjipanni things) and a sarong (since when do i wear sarongs?) i know i sound ungrateful but fuck, a little research or even miles opening up his eyes would go a long way - thennnnnnnnnnn apparently i didnt make enough fuss about my presents and his parents were upset. wtf...
im not sure if i am made out for this.
anyway i am off, not really going far, just to play petville, my new facebook addiction.
booyeah
ttfn
it has been one of the most exciting and best years i have had.
i started the year off in Brisbane living with Allure, we had the best time, we kept each other motivated and on the straight and narrow (ie... eating good food)... my confidence was at an all time high, i was happy and healthy and enjoying life... i was the lightest i had been in like 10+ years and was becoming happy within myself.
i moved back to the gold coast in July-ish and around this time everything happened.... i started seeing Miles, I got a new job, i stopped going to the gym, i stopped my anti-d's and i started eating badly again...which is no one's fault but my own. And even tho I should be happy, i feel meh, i have no energy and just feel blergh. I've put on 10kg since then which is upsetting cos i worked so hard to get to the point i was at. I guess i feel disappointed that i lost myself along the way and havent really devoted time to myself the last few months. I've started at the gym again but dont go as often as i should, but I am going to change that... just change my routine a bit and focus on myself first, others 2nd. I need to get my head right so I can be happy and enjoy things to the fullest.
I had a bit of a break financially wise, but will get back into paying stuff in January. Hermit time again... but hopefully that means i will focus on my health and fitness more. I need to get my eating right again.
Christmas was different this year... I spent the day with Miles' family... completely different from how my family spends it... not sure if i like it...
I scored well in the presents department (friends wise) i got a laptop cooler thing, a cool panda necklace/earring set, plus heaps more but my brain isnt working.
I was a little disappointed with my presents from miles and his family.... i really didnt want anything from his parents and i didnt want to get anything for them. but i had to, so i spent a fair bit on them cos i was told they expected certain things, didnt like vouchers etc.... so i bought nice things, and in return i got a bag (i love the bag i already have and i was annoyed miles told them to get me a bag), candles and shit (i hate candles), franjipanni earrings (i HATE franjipanni things) and a sarong (since when do i wear sarongs?) i know i sound ungrateful but fuck, a little research or even miles opening up his eyes would go a long way - thennnnnnnnnnn apparently i didnt make enough fuss about my presents and his parents were upset. wtf...
im not sure if i am made out for this.
anyway i am off, not really going far, just to play petville, my new facebook addiction.
booyeah
ttfn