resa

I'm so pissed off today. Well or rather I was pissed off when I was at work. I feel better now. I was angry and frustrated because I was training a new girl, and there were no managers there. I felt like I was working by myself. I feel like everyone was getting mad at me. Oh well I did the best I could with what I had to work with. I am so hurt and angry lately. That's it I am never mentioning people I loved and lost ever again. I'm miserable without them but I'm going to keep it to myself and shove down inside and hope it goes away. Or maybe I will meet someone new and forget all about those I have lost.

I need to let it go...for the sake of living life. I can't go on like this. I'm becomming something unreal. If people want to make me think they love me, when they either do, but aren't human enough to admit it, or they don't and they never really did. Well fuck them! They are not worth all the tears I have shed over any of them. I'm moving on as of now. I don't care if I die alone...I know what I felt is real, even if everyone else denies it now.

On an opposite note....I am excited for tomorrow. I'm going the zoo tomorrow in pittsburgh. I gotta get up early but i'm excited.