resa

I'm not feeling well today. I feel really exhausted, and my body is pretty sore. I feel like I was hit by a truck or something. I went out with a gorgeous guy last night, who to me looks like he could be a model or something, and for some reason...he thinks I'm attractive. We went to applebee's, then to see the ring two(it sucked), but it was the company not the activity. I'm affraid of falling for anyone right now, but I'm just going slowly into things.(I'm not sure what his intentions are) After the movie we went to play pool, and I did't get home until like 2:30 so today I'm really exhausted and sore from all of the rollerblading and hiking I've been doing lately.

I feel really depressed and bummed today...I think part of me feels like I am cheating still or something. I feel bad for having a good time last night. I also feel bad for something I want to talk about and bring out into the open that I cannot say yet because the timing isn't right. I just have certain regrets I wish I could let go. I wish things could be like they were. I need to quit living in the past, and build a future though. I hate my job too. I hope things turn around soon.