repus

randomness from the twists in my mind; i loathe rhyming, but this just poured out, somehow...


dr. jekyll's last journal entry...:


darkness always comes out of nowhere,
creeping up and taking over
this weathered and tired soul,
lacking any form of control
to walk away from the shadows,
into the light, a new tomorrow,
positively tested ways
to guide us through another day,
'cause blindness...
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the sunrise blinded my eyes as i tried to fall asleep this morning. i have tapestries hanging over my windows to help block out the light, but they are not opaque. the lightest blow from the west maui mountains will send the bottom of the tapestries upward, to the ceiling, spilling the bright, glowing rays across my bedroom, assassinating every inch of shade in reach....
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so, this is it, finally! i'm going to be dedicating more time to writing words, music, life, etc. the gibberish that will ensue will be equally bad and great, so please bear with me, and offer constructive criticism if you possess that skill. my life is a mess and i feel like i am unraveling one thread at a time, though i wonder how much...
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so i am almost finished up with physical therapy. i am feeling a major difference in my body strength. my core has gotten a lot stronger, and so has my lower back. my depression still comes in waves, but as long as i am either busy or with company, then i am usually fine. it's the idle time time that kills me, but then again,...
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there's a sickness inside of me, tearing away
at the boredom and pain i feel everyday...

random lyrics i'll do something with if i can find the will to muster up the time and energy necessary to elaborate on it properly. i've been in and out of the darkness lately. got some bad toys with even worse intentions, and all they have left me with...
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Its strangely familiar how life seems to follow the cycles of life, in general, like the seasons of the calendar year. During a certain time each year, the sun sets much earlier, and it stays dark for longer periods. Ironically, this seems to be time of year that parts of nature are either dying, or doing whatever they have to do to preserve life itself,...
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high everybody, sorry i haven't been around so much lately, but i have a couple of valid excuses/reasons...:

1. i don't pay for internet access; i pirate a wireless signal that seems to be off more than on, but more importantly...

2. my outsides feel like they are being sucked inside a hole in my soul. idle time is the devil's plaything, and i've had...
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high everybody...! my visit home to dullass, texass was pretty good. i mean, i did want to be back home after a few days, but who wouldn't miss maui... anyways, i got to surprise the hell out of my family and a good amount of friends, 3 of which i hadn't seen in about 15 years; many of them had kids, some multiple, heh...! i...
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so i've been away for a bit, and i apologize. i've been doing things like moving, dealing with doctors, lawyers and insurance companies and trying to find adequate work. things are moving in the right direction, so i decided that if i didn't go home to visit right now, then i wouldn't be able to for almost another year. plus, since its been 15 months...
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one of the things that sucks the most about living in paradise is that most people are very transient, so even though new people are moving here constantly, my friends are leaving just as frequently. it's really hard to lose things once you have had them, as opposed to never having them to begin with, because then you really know what your missing. my buddy,...
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