Aloha everyone! I apologize for my absence, but my laptop died on me last june, and all I have for now is this "smart" phone. It allows me to get online to do certain things, but it is still pretty damn limited.
I am finally going to see my neurosurgeon april 21st to compare mri's, discuss surgical options and hopefully set a date for me to go under the knife, which I am still afraid of, but after 2&1/2 years of "conservative treatment," I just want my life back, and I definitely don't want to have to depend on the pharmaceuticals they've had me on this whole time, 9 and still counting...
I lost control of and wrecked my moped on jan 30th, hitting the ground face first without a helmet on. I was taken to the ER and had x rays and ct scans done on my head and knee, which had positive results to them. I was coming home from a convenient store with a couple of sodas when I hit a wet spot on the road at a curve, and my back tire slid to my right and I went down before I even knew what was going on. I hit my left eyebrow first, and got 6-7 stitches from that, and then I must have rolled a few times before coming to a stop. Luckily, I was wearing jeans, a hoodie and a toboggan, or beanie, which just so happened to save my eye socket from crushing my eye during the initial impact. I was VERY sore for a few weeks, but somehow did not injure my lower back any worse, thankfully. It also kinda helped to knock some sense into my stubborn head: I realized I was only focusing on the negative things going on in my life right now, listening to angry music and reading negative literature; I had become a hermit that would not go out to do much of anything, and I always kept my shades pulled tight, never allowing the sunlight in my room, not to mention my life. Since the moped accident, I've changed my thought processes, music I listen to, got more positive reading materials and started letting the light in my life, and I already feel a million times better, mentally.
While I'm still awaiting this surgery, I've been writing some new music and can't wait to get the correct few other players I need to perform it live, so please keep me in your thoughts and I will try to get on here more often, though an actual laptop would be better, but for now I'll just have to use this when it works right. I hope all is well in your worlds, and please remember to help look out for eachother, as we're all in this together...
Aloha
I am finally going to see my neurosurgeon april 21st to compare mri's, discuss surgical options and hopefully set a date for me to go under the knife, which I am still afraid of, but after 2&1/2 years of "conservative treatment," I just want my life back, and I definitely don't want to have to depend on the pharmaceuticals they've had me on this whole time, 9 and still counting...
I lost control of and wrecked my moped on jan 30th, hitting the ground face first without a helmet on. I was taken to the ER and had x rays and ct scans done on my head and knee, which had positive results to them. I was coming home from a convenient store with a couple of sodas when I hit a wet spot on the road at a curve, and my back tire slid to my right and I went down before I even knew what was going on. I hit my left eyebrow first, and got 6-7 stitches from that, and then I must have rolled a few times before coming to a stop. Luckily, I was wearing jeans, a hoodie and a toboggan, or beanie, which just so happened to save my eye socket from crushing my eye during the initial impact. I was VERY sore for a few weeks, but somehow did not injure my lower back any worse, thankfully. It also kinda helped to knock some sense into my stubborn head: I realized I was only focusing on the negative things going on in my life right now, listening to angry music and reading negative literature; I had become a hermit that would not go out to do much of anything, and I always kept my shades pulled tight, never allowing the sunlight in my room, not to mention my life. Since the moped accident, I've changed my thought processes, music I listen to, got more positive reading materials and started letting the light in my life, and I already feel a million times better, mentally.
While I'm still awaiting this surgery, I've been writing some new music and can't wait to get the correct few other players I need to perform it live, so please keep me in your thoughts and I will try to get on here more often, though an actual laptop would be better, but for now I'll just have to use this when it works right. I hope all is well in your worlds, and please remember to help look out for eachother, as we're all in this together...
Aloha
*hugs*
I hope you are alright.
glad you feel better mentally, i hope everything else gets better soon!