That is how this holiday makes me feel. While most people are happy spending time with their family I feel miserable. I especially feel really alone this year because I am actually alone. This is my first year that I am not with family in my life. I knew this might happen when I moved, I just didn't know it was going to be so hard. It doesn't help that the one person here in Madison I want to be with doesn't want to be with me. I hate being single around this time of year. Mostly because all I see are couples holding each other and being really happy to have one another. And I really want that in my life. I know I have my problems, but am I so messed up that no one wants anything to do with me? At least when it comes to that personal relationship I am looking for. I really don't know how I am going to be able to pick myself up out of bed in the morning other then to drag myself to work for the time and a half pay. I know there are people in this world that have it worse then me, and I know I sound selfish but all I really want for Christmas this year is for someone to love me.
Perfect wording. This could only mean you've indured such things and for that I am sorry. No one should ever feel this way.