repairmanc

The past few days have kinda been a downer...I dont feel so well....seasonal allergies...thats a bitch....its actually kinda nice to breath with out feeling like im sucking air through a vaccum filter..

That and Im struggling with feelings of isolation..... I dunno....Im just sick of summer I guess. That and sick of not having in person friends in my area.....it seems like I am looking for fish in a desert...maybe I need to rethink how I go about making friends.....but I WILL NOT CHANGE MYSELF in order to make some friends.

I have this cool art room....and no fucking time to get to enjoy it......you cant just turn creativity on in a flash and turn it off again when your done......

well according to my wife that is the way it should be....its like okay you have an hour in between dinner and bath time....go draw...be a good little boy and be done and put away your things before we eat.....

I was so creativve and productive before I married.....I always wanted a mate that supported me....and nurtured my talent.....not one that threw away all my collections and pretty much biult a damn in front of all my creativve flows......art is only okay if its filtered through her....all my inspiration and raw energy has to be vetted and approved by her before it proceeds into a finished work....

Its like trying to surf the web in fucking china....

Oh well....

Hope you all are doing well.
I will keep you alll in my thoughts.....
and please do something really crazy and cool.....
write me about it so I can live vicariously through you

later girls